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2006-09-07T14:02:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!!!
sorry for not updating for the past few days.
i wasnt in the mood.
haiyaaa.
and guess what, i went to singapore idol yesterday!
weeeee~!
went with all my schmates.
it was cool and fun.
took pictures .
and oh, besides that, i went shopping on a monday at tampines with my bestie.
bought a lot of things.
but it was cool and fun like hell.
i love every single thing that i've bought except the pants.
hahah.
im not gonna wear it again!
okaey.. uhm, so..
here are the pics..
;

okaey fuck.
so, i will post more pics.
TMR.
stupid blogger.
bye all!

2006-09-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL!
i wanna update! (i sound so hyped up huh?)
yes yes.
so, ferst and foremost..
HAPPY 20TH TO MY SYSTER; SABRINA!
; wish you all the best in everything you do and hope that after you get married by the end of next year, i can get a niece or nephew after the following year. im looking forward!! hahahaa.
and yesterday, we went to town to celebrate her birthday.
heehee.
and since, IDAHCHIX wanna look at my pictures..
here it is;

and i think, that's all.
ahaaaa.
we had fun yesterday.
of course!
hmm.. and today..
i didn't go anywhere except to.. LOT 1. (that's the most boring place of all. )
went there with hanah, my bestie.
did nothing else but just chill out and talked crap.
heh.
planned to go suntec to collect my cheque but my boss didn't turn up at last.
-.-'
ohwells, i gotta upload videos to my class blog. (im becoming more and more busy to just entertain those kids!)
haaa. and yea, to hanah, adam & chels; have fun tmr! too bad i can't follow. take lots of pictures okaey. but try not to make me jealous. maybe we can go sentosa together some other time. heeeks. hearts!
toodle doodle doo! ((:

2006-08-31T15:31:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL!
im now at home feeling all bored and clueless. (don't ask me why but it's about someone.)
my mum didn't meet my teacher just now.
hoho.
anws, did i tell you that i quarelled with my malay teacher?
it wasn't at all expected!
i shouted at her and all. (that was my first time in my life i shouted at a teacher!)
but then, in the end, i guess she understood me after all the crying and all.
haha.
oh yea, i may be deleting my friendster account and sticking to myspace account.
it's much more fun!
heeheee.
and i guess friendster is getting lamer and lamerer every day!
yup yup, i don't receive new testimonials nor friend requests so yea..
besides, too many 'mats' laa!
and before i forget, did i tell you that my syster's fiance bought HER a UZAP?
hahahha.
it's freaking cool and fun!
hahha.
i tried it yesterday and after trying, my body felt light!
cool aye?
heh.
another thing, here's a picture of my class blog, made by me!
tell me how do you guys think about it. (good! not bad of course.)
and all right! that's all folks!
((:

2006-08-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL.
i just came back.
from where i hear?
ohhs, from tampines as well as the airport.
accompanied my elder syster to the airport.
i just don't wanna tell why. (it's not important and besides, there'll be some busybody who'll spread this news to the world! my blog's not secure anymore..)
and after that, went to tampines mall.
my syster bought some new threads from MANGO. (hey! their threads are improving and looking more cool.. )
she spent 80 bucks, close to 90.
and actually, she wanted to buy a bag but then, she refused after the second thought.
uhm, after that, went to mcdonald's.
ate, smoke and whatever.
met my baby and syster went to meet her fiance.
and blahh blahh bluhh. (i don't wish to just be long winded!)
went back and taaadaaaa! here i am..
oh yea, i am on two days MC.
wooohooo!
i am tremendously happy because i get to really rest.
my neck is now giving me problems and it hurts so much that i can't explain.
i sort of quarelled with my baby.
haisss.
i hate it when this happens.
i just don't wish to happen over and over again.
im tired.
haisss.
that's all.
okaey bye!
((:

2006-08-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

once again..
hello all.
im here to blog again.
oh yea yea, i read ROSIE DUNNE book and it made me wanna cry and come to my senses. (eventhough it was already my third time reading it!)
okaey so, that doesn't seem so important did it?
haaaah.
i am currently suffering from mental boredom disorder. (besides being tired and all..)
i am just too exhausted and too lazy to move.
i feeeeeeeeeeel like going to bed straight away.
oh, too bad, i can't cos i need to finish my bloody homework or the bitch'll come after me with some mad cow disease or something.
she's really getting on my nerves as days passed.
did i tell you my parent teachers meeting is on wednesday?
yes, it is.
and apparently, i don't think my parents would wanna show their faces to my bloody teachers and so do i.
i feel like its unnecessary.
just a waste of time.
why would you wanna meet up with my parents and make life difficult for me?
oh goodness.
btw, last saturday, i met my darling honey love.
and we chilled out.
i missed him a lot.
especially that hot sexy (skinny!) bod.
and the fact that i didnt meet him for two weeks already, i felt like i was in love all over again.
which was very pleasant indeed.
i hope i can meet him tomorrow.
heeeheeeee.
hanah asked me out just now and asked me whether i was free for saturday cos her mum wanna bring us to sentosa. (god! i sound like a kid!)
but unfortunately dear bestie, im working!
nyeeheeee.
sorry. but somehow, we still have our movie and karaoke-ing plans isn't it?
currently, hanah and me seems to be very very engaged in OUR own activites.
don't get me wrong, we just miss going out with each other lately.
it's just that we've been TOO busy with guys and all the shits. (and dearest bf, my time is never wasted when i was with you. only when you start making me mad and when you talk about gadgets. other than that, i wished it never ends.)
and now, its PAYBACK TIME!
haahaaa.
i wanna have a hell of a good time. (and hell of good results to scare my parents off me.)
ohwells, good night all.
wish you guys would have a happy day tomorrow. (not to mention its actually a monday tomorrow!)
((:

2006-08-25T18:46:00.000+08:00

HELLO AUNTIES, UNCLES, GRANDMA, GRANDADS AND TO WHOEVER WHO IS READING MY RANT. HEEEHEEE.
i am now currently at my mum's working place, feeling all frustrated plus a bit happy as well as worried.
ohh goodness.
first thing's first..
things hasn't been going on so smoothly as it seems.
school? dun ask. it sucks big time like hell.
i didnt attend school today as i was too exhausted of hanging out with my elder syster yesterday.
i'll fill you guys in; we went town. hang out till 10.30 and got back at around 11 plus.
had real fun. like finally.. after weeks and days and months without proper laughter.
heeeheee.
okaey enough of it already.
and because of today.. my stupid little assholic teacher called my MUM.
of all people and time!
i really feel like strangling her.
ughh.
oh yea, i've started mugging for my EOY.
geography especially. (ahh, you know i sucked at it.)
and so, that's the main reason i have to really study.
i don't wanna be stucked in secondary 3 forever!
sec 3 life just suck.
and so will it be for sec 4.
but who the hell cares.
enough of school already.
my boyfriend wants to meet me tomorrow.
oh what shit.
im suppossed to meet him NEXT week but what the hell.
it's not that i don't wanna meet him but my pocket's freaking dry at the moment!!
ohh shitness.
i just don't like it when this happens.
and also, my weight!!
i'm becoming more and more fatter.
haisss.
but somehow, i just don't care because it's me and i whatever it is, i'm not trying
to get attention all on me.
i don't want to!
i don't want things to be like before where all the jerks would disturb me.
i already have a boyfriend.
and in any case, im not interested to break up with him and find a new one.
it's just so tiring and such a waste of time.
and to my dearest boyfriend;
do get ready to get a lot of drool and sloppy kisses from me because,
I MISS YOU LIKE HELL!
heeeheee.
im gonna hug that boy and make him suffocate.
nyeeheee.
last but not least,
im experiencing the ultimate surfing hell from home.
it's really frustrating.
i hate it.
i just can't connect to the internet no matter what.
fuck them.
oh i guess, that's all.
goodbye all.
((:

2006-08-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO AUNTIES AND UNCLES!
im back for updates.
okaey okaey.
i forgot to tell all of you..
i watched click a few weeks ago and cried!!
hohoho.
it really touched my heart laa.
but other than that, i laughed a lot. nice one.
ohhh, i watched ghost game yesterday.
one hell of a freaky movie sia!
very scary!
hoho.
not recommended for the faint hearted.
but nice laa.
it's a thai movie so i thot it wud ended up like DORM or smth.
but, it's totally not.
uhh-huh.
and yea, me and my bestie kept shouting.
we were the only two who made a lot of noise.
the two of us sounded more like 5.
heeeheee.
i wanna watch the breakup laa.
it looks sort of cool.
hahaha.
even my elder syster wanna watch it.
but still, i dunnoe when the hell i could ever watch it when i don't even have the time to.
ohh ohh! i can't wait for 14 days to pass by quickly.
i can meet my bf by then.
i miss him a lot.
i will not meet him for the next two weeks so its a total of 3 weeks of not meeting each other.
ahhh.. whatever laa.
khairul, inoeyoudon'tcare.
ohwells, bbye all!
((:

2006-08-20T03:35:00.000+08:00

this goes out to all boyfriends.

a grrl and a boy have been together for a few years.

the boy loved the grrl so much eventhough her attitude stinks.

they used to spend a lot of time together.

the grrl wasn't in love with him at first but she did eventually after hardwork attempts he made to win her heart.

She didn't tell him she loved him but she discreetly showed.

but, as time passed , his days got even more hectic.

he became very busy till he had no time to call her.

the grrl felt very neglected.

she wanted to give up but her love for him was too strong to even break it up.

she started crying, day and night.

they did somehow talk everyday but only for less than an hour a day.

it wasn't like before where she could talk all night and day to him.

she thought that he didnt love her anymore.

so, she started doing stupid things without the boy's knowledge.

she started smoking and drinking heavily till she got sick.

everyday, she would cough hard.

when asked by him, she would just say that she's a bit sick and he would ask no further.

it continued as a routine soon after.

it eventually turned out that she had lung cancer.

she was admitted to the hospital as it was already at the fatal stage.

she didnt tell him about her, being admitted to the hospital.

a week passed by and they did not contact each other.

somehow, upon seeinig her condition, her bestfriend decided to call her bf up to tell him what was happening to her despite several reminders about not to tell her condition to him.

Upon hearing what happened, he rushed to the hospital.

And when he saw her suffering, he cried.

"why did you not inform me about this?" he said, sobbing.

"i didnt wanna make you worry and disturb you. you were just too busy, so that was why i took the decision not to tell you," she said as tears rolled down her cheeks.

"but why? don't you know that i still love you?"

"but you never did show for these last few months.."

"i did but i just couldn't really show it to you as i was too busy."

"yes i know..."

"im so sorry baby.. let's just start it all over again.. i swear i will spend more time with you and i'll do anything you want.. "

suddenly, the nurses and doctors came.

they had to take her away for an operation.

this time, he really cried.

she lay weak as they slowly transferred her to another bed as they started pushing her away.

he followed her bed.

"i love you and i'll wait for you.. " he said as he kissed her cheeks.

"i love you too baby.." she said smiling whilst crying.

he sat near the operation theatre.

he had a flash back of their memories spent together.

he felt remorseful and how he wished he could turn back time..

few hours has passed.

finally, the doctors came out and they shook their heads.

he cried like a boy who has lost his own parents..

he couldn't believe it but it was all fated...

he just couldn't turn back time..

-the end.

"cherish her before it's too late."

wrtitten by ; ME.

2006-08-18T17:03:00.000+08:00

i feel sad these few days.
i don't know what's happening to him as well.
i don't feel good.
our relationship seems rocky.
what should i do?
baby seems to be in his own world lately.
he doesn't call or sms me.
he only calls at night or when he has nothing to do.
he doesn't let me meet him.
reason is, he has plans with his friends or he is tired.
when he's with his friends, he's never tired.
he's so hyper.
it's not that i don't like him being with his friends all the time but at least, just spare some thought for me please..
i dun ask for much..
it gets worse sometimes.
i don't think he needs me anymore.
and i think i'm not going to meet him for about 2 weeks to 1 month.
i know it's kinda long but i can't do anything.
if he doesnt wish to meet me then, i can't force him to.
i love him with all my heart but he doesn't seem to care.
im not blaming him.
neither am i saying he's right.
i feel miserable.
he's like my part-time boyfriend only.
this is not what i pictured my perfect relationship with him to be.
haiss.
help me. <3

2006-08-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL!
hows my new skin?
hohoo.
i just did it because i felt like it.
hmm, just now i had my chemistry, geography and POA paper.
i screwed the chemistry and geography paper.
but maybe i have some hope on the geography paper but not chemistry.
bluek bluek.
oh yea, my POA paper was A-okaey.
i managed to do it with the help of my POA teacher.
as in, he explained to me how to deal with depreciation questions when i was having my free period.
ohh god, how am i going to cope with EOY papers?
i just have to persevere i guess.
im so tired these few days.
oh yea, did i tell you that my co-form teacher is such an extra as well as an asshole?
k.po siaa.
haiyoo.
i feel like smacking her to the drain and make her die.
i much prefer my form teacher.
eventhough he's an asshole and a disgusting person as well, he understands us well.
my school has been preparing for teachers' day.
i dun feel like celebrating it already.
last time, during my primary school days, i used to organise surprise partys for the class.
all went well of course.
but now, it's so shitty.
bluek bluek.
we can't really organise such stuffs.
all because the teachers dun like it and the class won't cooperate.
ohh, my class is so stingy.
yeapyeap.
so nonsensical.
but nonetheless, i still love my classmates.
maybe the teachers do deserve our shitty behaviours because they're all like shit as well.
maybe not all, SOME.
ohwells, i got to go.
i have assignments to finish.
heeee.
((:
have a good night everybody.

2006-08-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

ANOTHER NEW SKIN! I NEED COMMENTS! ((;

2006-08-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL.
im freaking stressed.
haiss. so yeap yeap, let me tell you what i did on saturday and sunday..
saturday, went out at 9 to meet baby at tampines.
waited for him for two whole hours.
*he's forever slow. bluek bluek.
uhmm, then i met him under a void deck.
sat around and then he suggested we go to his house.
his mum was at home. after sitting for a while, his dad came home.
was kinda scared of his dad. *scary okaey his dad!
then, sani came. baby wanted to buy a new computer that day. ugh. -that asshole.
oh yea, i got LANCOME's mascara and moisturiser from his mum. heehee. ((:
i fought with him that day.. because of some stupid grrls. whatever laa.
at 4, went to work. was late for 10 mins. mwahaa.
okaey, so sunday.. i was late for work for 55 mins.
i was too tired so thats why i overslept.
went back at 4.
took 190 from cityhall and at 5, met my parents at bukit panjang.
went to kallang to eat soup. heeheee.
and then, went to aljunied to pay bills..
after that, we ate AGAIN at marine cove.
fun fun fun.
then, we fetched my elder syster at the airport.
she works there. after that, EVERYTHING ENDED!
monday.. today.. boring like hell. i slept and slept and slept.
heehoo. okaey laa, need to study for common test. ((:
okaeybye ALL!

2006-08-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

im back for updates!

i have pictures to show but i'll show maybe later or tomorrow instead.

hoho.

went to watch the stupid and SHORT fireworks yesterday.

was okaey. i went with my family.

had fun.

oh yea,

HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

singapore's age and my mum's almost the same.

haha

oh yeaaa...

i have a big NEWS!

somebody has got a crush on my bf despite knwing he has a gf.

hahahahaa.

its very funny.

ookaey. i dunnoe what else to do now.

BYE ALL!

sorryfortheverylameentry!hahahhhaha.

2006-08-08T17:54:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE.

i am currently feeling super fucking bored.

oh yea yea, i saw at someone's blog about EMO.

as in, people in the tagboard, talking about EMO.

discriminating one another about who knows more about EMO.

HHAAHHAHAHAHAHAA!!!

freaking childish.

i feel that these people, the owner, as well as the taggers are all poseurs!

hahaha.

so what's up with me, i hear?

ohhs, i'm just informing all of you that you guys just can't be fucking emo cause you fucking can't and you can never fucking will. HAHAHA.

im mean. actually, this post/words are meant for this particular blog whose owner, is one hell of a big fucking poseur. hoho.

okaey. stop it atikah.

i guess you posuers who love being EMO and all should really do some self-reflection and go ahead, do some searching about EMO.

bluekk. *gags and pukes.

okay!

so, im back again for my oh-so-boring updates.

nyaahaa.

today isn't a school day for me as im super freaking lazy to go.

oh yea yea..

i have to tell you guys about yesterday.

the story;

my boyfriend went out with wan(bigberd), sani & another wan, who is the birthday boy.

they went to bedok and got drunk at a neary streetsoccer place.

first thing's first; im mad.

why?; bf didn't inform me that he wanted to drink.

okaey, continue..

and then, bf got drunk real badly till sani had to piggy back him.

-.-'!!

and then in the bus, i called him.

and he scolded me for nothing.

okaey!

suspect?; he dun behave that way if he isnt drunk.

when he reached home, he called me and during our conversation, i was being called 'sial' for being concerned about him.

what happened next?; i cried! im sucha crybaby! but i wudnt cry if i didnt love him so much.

and so, i called sani and he explained everything.

still i was disappointed.

i don't like guys who drinks and all.

i accept smoking but not really drinking.

whatever.

i miss my bf still.

BBYE ALL! ((:

2006-08-07T20:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL!

wow, it's just two days that i haven't been updating and i've received so many tags.

hoho.

thank you all, for your time to tag me.

heeeeks.

so what have i been up to for the last two days?

hmm, on saturday, i met baby before work.

where?

as usual, at tampines.

sat around and stuffs and we met up with sani and hanafi,

both baby's friend.

i went to work at 2 and baby went to hanafi's girlfriend's birthday party with

them.

at 8, he came over to my workplace before going esplanade to catch the fireworks.

anyone went?

hmm, he came to collect chocolates.

he was with hanafi&his girlfriend, as well as sani.

hanafi's girlfriend was shorter than me, and was 17 years old.

she didn't smile at all to me although i kept smiling.

hoho. but it's okay though.

and then, hanah came.

chatted and at 9.30, i closed the shop and went to meet my parents as well as the slow

poke, kikyn. we sent hanah to her mum's workplace as her mum wanted to send

her to a 24 hour clinic. her eyes was giving her problems and i pity her.

so, we went to eat at west coast after that.

and soon after, we went home.

called baby and slept.

sunday.

i went to work as usual.

had a little tiff with baby.

wanted to meet him after work but he was too busy with his friends.

and i got furios that i burst out crying while i was at fish&co, ordering my takeaway dessert.

sani talked to me as well.

i explained my situation to him.

i said, in a week, i only get to spend about 2 to 3 hours out of his 168 hours in a week.

i don't meet him like before and how i wish things wouldn't be like this.

i miss him a lot despite the saturday meet up.

and i said something like, "maybe what wan said was true. we are drifting apart."

and for that, baby scolded me and cursed wan.

he was shocked to hear that.

he was asking sani and all about who told wan about us.

whatever.

after a few minutes, i told baby that it's okay, i'll be meeting hanah instead but i actually ended up going home after work. heeeks.

was too tired.

TODAY:

i didn't go school and i'll probably won't go for tomorrow's too.

now, i have to head to chua chu kang to meet hanah.

she suffering from a heartbreak and she's gone missing.

oh goodness.

what's happening to my bestie. hope she's fine.

that's all.

bbye.

i hate a jerk called alfian. fuckyouforbreakingmybestie'sheart. suchaplayer.

2006-08-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

a heartwell ending - if looks could kill

HELLO humans.

i just got up from my nap.

heee.

im very tired man.

oh yea, i came to school straight this week!!

ohh godd, its been a long time since i've done this.

heehee.

i so love it! ((:

huuhhuu.

im supposed to go for the national day reahearsal.

as in, my school's rehearsal. i have to join preena and all but i was totally tired.

sorry babes. =x

so, i went shopping yesterday!

went to topshop only. spent 280..

ohh.. i got to go.

bbye all.

2006-08-02T17:45:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALLS.

i am currently at my mummy's workplace.

i had to help her take over the shop while she attends to some stuffs at home.

actually, i thought of sleeping at home but unfortunately, mum called and she asked me to

come over quickly.

im so damn exhausted.

luckily, i brought my homework along.

nowadays, i tend to do my homework and hand them on time.

i just don't want my co-form teacher to keep bugging me.

hoho.

speaking of which, my mum had to actually meet both my form and co-form teachers but

fortunately, my form teacher's going away for a month and i guess he'll forget about it

sooner or later. besides, i've been to school regularly these few days.

hahaks. and im happy. except for geography. i don't know why, among all subjects,

i can't tolerate geography.

although the teacher is FUN, i can't help it. guess it's just too long winded.

oh by the way, school was okaye just now.

but, but, but..

i quarelled with some tamil students.

hoho.

i wasn't being racist and all but i was just defending my other chinese and tamil friends.

so, i came along and asked them what's wrong.

one of my tamil friends was already teary-eyed.

so, this tamil girl was shouting at the top of her lungs and she said, "chinese like

shit and malay 'pundek' sia!"

okaye, so i had to tell her back..

i mean, what's up with her?

i said something like, whose the 'pundek' now?

you or us?

the term is commonly used for indians.

sorry for any tamils who is reading my blog right now but i just think that, that tamil

girl was just making a fool out of herself and bringing herself down.

haha.

that's real stupid.

like come on, we're singaporeans and we're living in a multi-racial country and yet

you say such things just to defend a tamil girl who comes from malaysia and whose

attitude stinks like a motherfucker.

hoho.

you're real stupid.

hope it gets back to you in the face someday.

ohh, enough of this politics.

i have a great news to share with all of you.

i did my oral presentation and it was about my web layouts and all my edited pictures.

guess what?

i got 9/10 for it!

haha.

im so freaking happy!

okaye, so enough of that also.

about the frustration?

im glad i could talk it out with my mum.

at least she understood.

ohwells..

((:

BYE ALL.

2006-08-01T20:15:00.000+08:00

HEYS ALL.

been very furstrated these few days.

over what?

parents.

mom and dad.

ohh godd, im so sick.

okaye, so let me begin with my mum.

MUM;

whenever my dad pours out his anger to her, she'll scold me back.

fair? nahh-uhh.

just now, as i was about to have a POA test, she called me.

she asked me where i was and stuffs.

i told her my prepaid was left with just a few cents and she didn't

believe me. haiss.

and during my test, i looked at her message and i was totally shocked.

she wanted me to quite my job and said that i've changed.

and from there, i couldn't even concentrate on my test.

i FLUNKED.

goodness.

and when i told her that she was the cause, she scolded me on the

phone and hung up soon after.

DAD;

he's the cause of all mess.

ALWAYS.

he doesn't trust me and still thinks that im a 10 year-old kid.

seriously, i feel like strangling him at times.

he may be a nice man but when he gets on my nerves, i feel like calling

him a monster or gremlin.

ohh my godd.

)):

oh wells, lets stop this mum and dad talk..

how's school today?

fine. i slept behind my book for maths. heeee.

my teacher only woked me up when it was almost 5 minutes to my lunch break.

about the POA test?

im lucky that my teacher gave me a chance to sit for another one.

coolness.

okaye, enough of school talks.

i have a lot of homework.

now, my boyfriend.

ohh godd, he getting busier like me and we're uncontrollable.

goodness gracious me.

i don't know what else to do.

i get very sleepy these days and i can't really talk to him.

haiss.

maybe i should really give him some time and not call him.

let him enjoy with his friends and work.

what can i do?

i can't control his life anymore.

okaye, no more bragging.

stayy happy all.

TC! ((:

2006-07-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

hello sweetest things on earth.

i just got back from work actually.

and im very super duper tired.

so, how do you guys think of my skin?

hmm, im kinda in a bad mood right now.

just had a dispute with my mom and dad.

so yeap yeap.

you guys must be wondering where i've been and stuffs

and why the lack of updates right?

hahaa.

it's not that im uber LAZY to blog.

but its just that i don't really have time to blog a long

entry or whatsoever.

and even if i had the time, whenever the page shows the create-post

part, suddenly, my brain will switch off and i'll be damn

clueless of why i was in the create post page in the first place.

isn't it stupid?

maybe i AM getting stupid.

haha.

i just got my pay just now and i'm still wondering of when

the hell i am going shopping. goodness.

i was thinking of dragging and torturing my boyfriend along but

i'm afraid that he'll be either schooling or working.

eversince he's working, he's been very busy and the only time

we talk to each other is at 12 plus.

and that is so very late.

hoho.

besides that, the only day we can meet is saturday.

because basically, that's the only day where i'll go tampines and

wait for him under his void deck.

no matter how long the wait, i still love him.

haha.

what the hell.

but heck, it's been almost 9 months now.

long enough.

haha.

oh what crap am i blabbering about?

guess i'd better get going.

it's a freaking school day tomorrow.

what a drag.

take care you people.

((:

2006-07-28T21:25:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL!

im finally back with a new skin.

dun worry.

i'll refresh all the tags okaeyy. heeeks.

more updates coming up soon. for the moment,

ENJOY BROWSING!

((:

yours truly,

PHASHION.STARR*

2006-07-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

this suffering; billy talent

pics!!

my frens and me;

presenting my new cat...

NAT!

to be continued..

heeeheee.((:

ohyea!! i CUT MY HAIR!

2006-07-19T15:04:00.000+08:00

leave like a ghost; the juliana theory

HELLO HELLO!

sorry for not updating!!!

kinda busy laa.

how are you guys doiink?

so, so, so..

what's been happening to me?

nothing much actually.

nyeehaa.

i did went to baybeats on friday.

heeeks.

had fun.

and the weekends, i worked.

monday and tuesday, work again.

see??????

what a boring life right?

nyaahaa.

ohhh gooddd. actually, its not that i lead a really boring life.

but it's just that i have a super duper big STM inside my head.

incase u dunnoe, its Short Term Memory.

wahaha.

soo, okaey. happy now?

nyaahaa. okaey bye laaa. boredom sia.

i need to go clinic summore.

2006-07-13T02:09:00.000+08:00

monty are i; tie off your veins

i can't sleep.

its very late already.

anws, hu's going baybeats?

im going on a friday.

but hell, i dunnoe yet.

im not really enthusiastic.

ohh god.

ohkaey bye.

((:

2006-07-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

as tall as lions; love love love

very very bad.

a lot of spams.

craps and cheebais.

haizz.

can't leave me alone?

i doubt i even know you.

even so, what did i do to you?

grow up laa.

omg.

you say my bf is so 'kental'.

hello?

did he even do anything wrong?

what a wrrld.

full of hatred.

whatever laa ppl.

pls leave me alone.

i hate having to ban one by one.

lets have peace.

im not in the mood.

i've too many probs.

fuck life.

---------------------------------------------------

and so, as u see.

too many hate tags everywhr.

i cant blog peacefully as i know some people wud just pass it ard.

my blog used to be very safe but now it's a threat.

so therefore, i've created a new blog.

but i won't reveal to anybody.

it's just simple.

about me and my life but contains a lot of hidden secrets.

i'll only tell if i think i can trust you.

))=

what a life. TC all.

2006-07-11T20:50:00.000+08:00

cute is what we aim for; teasing to please

hello alls.

im currently doing my malay project.

actually, it's already done but i don't care.

i wanna do it again coz im unsatisfied.

why?

because all my classmates seems to do very well.

so, thats why.

i came to school late today.

at about 10.15am.

i was very sleepy i think.

even when the alarm clock rang, i cudnt hear it.

hahs.

guess i really am very tired.

heeeks.

then school was per normal.

today, i bought a lot of snacks.

oh my, and now, i forgot..

i have a POA hmwk to do.

whutever laa.

haiya.

i have nothing much to blog actually.

hmmm, okaylaa.

bye.

((:

2006-07-10T18:34:00.000+08:00

knights of cydonia; muse

"do you remember the times i always say i love you and i'll kiss your cheek till you felt so uncomfortable.. The endless nights we spent on the phone.. Do you remember the first time we met at your house.. and the first kiss at the mrt.. and the first present on valentine's day.. and the first fight we quarelled.. well.. it's just that.. i love you very much and i'm afraid that you'll leave me.. you're the blood running in my veins. without you i can't live and be someone so happy that i am today.. thank you."

hello alls!

heeheee.

first and foremost, i would like to say thank you to all the faithful

bloggers who wished me happy birthday.

hahaks.

yup, it was my birthday yesterday.

heeeks.

i got a lot of cash and i bought a paul frank flip flop and a volcom belt

after work.

was sad over an incident yesterday but after that i cooled down and passed it off as a

stupid incident.

i don't care.

my daddy was real sweet on the day of my birthday.

he wished me happy birthday and sang a birthday song on the night of my birthday.

heeks.

my daddy was real sweet on the night of my birthday.

thanks dad.

my mummy bought me a birthday cake and i will get my present on the 15th.

yeay.

anws, the text i highlighted as italics is a msg sent from honey love.

i love you toos okay baby?

i won't leave you.

i'm happy that you finally let this known to me.

and now, i need not worry.

((:

oh yea, he wished me happy birthday and sang me a lot of birthday songs in one day.

haha.

thanks baby, for making me happy.

and im sorry if these few days, i tend to sleep early and leave you staying up all alone.

i missed those times where we used to talk till mornings.

but sadly, times changed.

maybe we can do it occasionally when we have our free time.

don't think that i've changed and have another guy.

i don't.

im still faithful to you.

and i'll always be.

so, back to today's rant.

i went to school today with the bestfriends.

and halfway while i was schooling, stomach ache strucks and i went home.

so that's about it.

and yea, did i told you i have a new cat?

it's damn cute and it's just the size of my palm.

and also, very naughty toos.

my other cat, sophie is always jealous when i tend to be busy with that kitten.

haha.

no worries sophie, i still love you! haha

ohwells, gtg.

im hungry! heeks.

TC all.

((:

2006-07-07T19:36:00.000+08:00

fabulous liar; fall of transition

sometimes i dun understand..

why does my dad has to control me so much?

why?

why doesnt he trust me?

why doesnt he leave me alone?

im sick man.

ugh.

my situation;

told my besties to come to town and meet each other and maybe proceed to esplanade at 4.

but instead, they called me at 7 and asked me out.

i was kinda furious plus blur of course.

then i asked my mum out of courtesy.

i told her that i wanted to have fun as it's my birthday on sunday and i won't get to spend it with my friends.

but then she said all sorts of things abput my dad.

she says that if i go, what the hell is she gonna answer to him?

ughh.

im 16 and im not trusted.

argh!!

im fucking frustrated like hell lor.

haizz.

on the other hand, my besties were at fault toos.

i told them to come at four but alas, they called me at 7 instead.

haizz.

i dunnoe what else to do.

fuck fuck fuck.

my dad always screws me up man.

im better off fatherless.

haaaaaaaaah.

godd, what the hell.

i cant even have fun wif my friends?

))'=

2006-07-07T02:38:00.000+08:00

time is running out; muse

helulu!

im tired.

super duper tired.

just now, went to polyclinic.

i had to refer my case to a specialist.

after which, went to town.

head lucky plaza ferst.

eat.

then, went mama's workplace.

help her do some big orders.

then, pack up.

head fareast.

ate at gelare and then bought fried mars bars.

nyeeheee.

((=

went back, talked to honey love.

haiyaa.

he has already started work and i can't meet him.

haiz.

whoever who goes to pastamania at tamp mall, pls watch

out for my bf yea. hehehee.

ohkaybye.

need to sleep.

my syster's heading to NUH tmr.

she also got referral case.

mafan.

TC ALL!

2006-07-05T18:56:00.000+08:00

the red jumpsuit apparatus; face down

i miss miss blogging.

heeks.

hellos all.

imback.

sort of laa.

i always got no time to update.

nyaahaa.

so lets see, went shopping with baby on monday.

went to bukit merah first laa to accompany him to take injection and

collect uniform.

then went to bank and collect cash.

went shopping laa.

ahaaa.

spent abt 169 at topshop and a lot more at other places.

heeks.

fun fun fun.

and i bumped into pollydolly at that day.

heys! long time no see! hahaha. you sure look great on that day! haha.

after shopping met up wif my besties.

adam, alfian and hanah.

heeks.

chill out.

total coolness and mrepekness.

and after everything finishes, meet mummy.

yesterday was a school day.

and today, i didnt attend school.

tired sia.

anws, im going to hanah's hse.

wanna meet up with the besties laa.

hahaks.

oh wells,

bbye all.

((:

2006-06-30T17:24:00.000+08:00

the calendar, the energy; matthew thiessen and the earthquakes

i got in!!!!!

hahahhahaa.

i went to my sch's so called 'idol competition'.

i mean, the audition.

hahahah.

i sang unfaithful by rihanna.

at first, i wanted to sing i promise by stacie orrico and also pieces by ashlee simpson,

but after much consideration, i sang unfaithful.

i pulled through man.

im so happy~!

the judges said i improved a lot from the pervious years.

i sound so much better and nicer.

hahahha.

whutever.

heee.

im getting my pay tmr.

wooohooooooooo!

can shop for my clothes for my final too yea.

heeeeks.

im very happy.

anws, i've been fine.

how abt u guys?

i wanna change blogskin laa.

omg.

alaa, wait for it jer laa.

soon.

okay.

((=

tc all.

2006-06-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

the future freaks me out; motioncity soundtrack

hellos all.

its been quite some time since i've updated.

hoho.

been quite busy laa.

saturday work, sunday i had to work toos.

sunday, i went to mc at west coast park wif daddy and mummy coz they wanna watch soccer.

and then on monday, which was ysterday, sch started.

went to sch ystd.

they changed my form teacher!!!

bloodyhell.

they changed it to someone whom i call yokies.

ewww.

yes, he's damn stupid but very strict.

ughh.

bluekk.

he called me and scolded me just now.

all bcoz i didnt come to sch and i didnt call him early in the morn.

fuck.

aiyoo.

im gonna get my punishment tmr.

arghh!!

nehoos, im getting my pay soon.

heeee.

and yea, hu knows i myt not update tmr..

so,

HAPPY ADVANCED 16TH BURFDAY TO MY BESTIE, HANAH.

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE AND HOPE THAT YOU AND HIM WILL LAST LONG. HAAHAAA.

ohkay, i think that's it. nothing much to update actually.

P/S; daddy, your keyboard sux. myne's better okay. nyaahaaa. ((=

2006-06-24T02:49:00.000+08:00

how to fix everything; bayside

im bored.

simply very very super duper bored.

haiiyoo.

im feeling very disappointed ryt now.

it's nothing to do with my fam or bf or frens.

((=

no worries.

i'll be fine.

nehoos, school's starting soon.

omg.

it's gonna be so fucking boring.

i can't stand the long hours of lessons all day.

eww.

and those stupid faces i hate.

ughh.

good thing there's this thing called SLEEP.

uh-huh.

i love sleeping in class.

my teachers are all blind.

and i hope they change my time table.

im sick and tired of the same old routines.

and i hope they change my maths teacher toos!

hahahahahahaha

miss liew, you talk like mrt uhh. too fast, i dun understand.

mweeeeek.

i dunnoe how my syster will survive.

she hasn't dyed her hair black yet.

nyaahaa.

she's in deep shit man.

anws, just now, i WORKED.

and then baby came.

and he go.

whutever.

i miss him still.

and oh! oh! oh! i tried pacific coffee company's ice blended caramel latte.

ehh syiok uhh.

almost the same as starbucks but still nice uhh.

heeeks.

im going to reset my wishlist soon.

next week okay.

my pay is next week.

and my burfday is the week after next.

wooohooo!

cool uhh.

after get pay, can get money from my parents.

hoho.

ohwells, im sleepy.

gd nyt all.

2006-06-23T11:31:00.000+08:00

serious; crash romeo

i was tagged by baby sassy and MiZGREEN.

Favourite colours : green, black, white, orange and blue.

Favourite foods : secret recipe's & swensen's.

Favourite songs : asleep at the wheel, devil in a midnight mass, studying politics etc..

Favourite movies : X-men 3.

Favourite sports : swimming and badminton.

Favourite season : summer.

Favourite day of the week: saturdays/sundays.

Favourite ice-cream flavour: a lot!! im an ice cream freak!

Favourite book : rossie dunne by cecelia ahern.

Favourite anime/cartoon : lilo & stich. CUTE!

- Your 9 currents -

Current mood : just woke up and feeling IN LOVE.

Current clothes : polo-tee and shorts.

Current desktop screensaver: i dun like screensavers. they make my pc work slow.

Current toe-nail colour: NIL. no time le!

Current time: 11.30am

Current annoyance: nothing. im feeling in love baybeh!

Current thought: when will i meet honey love again?

Current boy/girlfriend : MOHAMMAD KHAIRUL FAIZ.

-Your 8 first-

First bestfriend: suriani.

First crush: SOFEYAN. (my primary one crush. HAHAHAHAHAHAH!)

First movie: ohh fuck. like i rmbr?

First piercing: i dunnoe when but it was at isabella at wisma atria wif my dad! ((=

First lie: primary ONE! i lied to my uncle that i've done my hmwk but i didn't.

First music: i dun fucking noe.

First car: a toy car?

First handphone: sony erricson T100.

-Your 7 last-

Last cigarette: yesterday.

Last drink: mineral water.

Last car ride: just 12 hrs ago.

Last crush: wooooow. i have a lot of crush! haha. jkjk.

Last movie seen: x-men 3, the last stand.

Last phone call: honey love hp.

Last CD played: american history-x.

-Your 6 have you ever-

Have you ever dated one of your bestfriends: YES.

Have you ever been arrested: NO.

Have you ever skinny-dipped: wish i did!

Have you ever been on tv: soon. haahaaa.

Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: fuckk, hell no.

-Your 5 things worn on you-

1. shorts.

2. polo tee.

3. Hairband.

4. Necklace.

5. bra and undies.

-Your 4 things done today-

1. checked frenster.

2. transfer pics from digicam.

3. Blogging.

4. work, work and work.

-Your 3 things you are hearing now-

1. iTUNES.

2. TV.

3. the sound of the fan.

-Your 2 things you cannot live with-

1. honey love.

2. family.

-Your 1 thing you would do when you're bored-

1. pester honey love.

tagged people;

KIKYN

FIRAH

IRA SPYDEY

MISSBLURTINK

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------

hello alls.

i sooo miss blogging.

hoohoo.

i've been very restless these days.

but somehow, i didnt let PMS control my r-ship.

that's a lesson learnt.

((=

anws, im glad to announce that;

we're seven months old! so therefore,

HAPPY 7MTHS TO ATY[K]HAIRUL!

heehee.

im very happy.

indeed i am.

im finally gonna get my pay next week!!!!

woohooo.

im gonna shop.

i have $800 all by myself!

and im gonna find him a gift.

weeee.

i loike.

anws, i have some pics.

enjoys.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

that's my nephew my dad's holding on to. cute huh?

him again.

just so cute.

eating at lucky plaza. im fat. ryt?

dearest honey love.

him again.

*besties.

us again.

us.

((=

THAT'S ALL! ((=

2006-06-20T17:14:00.000+08:00

a change of pace; asleep at the wheel

hello alls.

im using my dad's comp.

just at the next door.

haaahaa.

actually, no difference laa but it's just that his is the LCD screen and

the speed is kinda fast and stuff.

but no worries okay daddy! im not jealous. im going to buy the LCD screen using my own

money and i will add the speed and ram toos.

no worries! i won't hog on to your oh-so-mrepek computer for so long!

hahaha. yea. my dad thinks that im jealous of his LCD screen shit.

ohh whutever.

im so fucking bored at home.

thot baby was cmg over but at he had to finish up painting his hse.

mweeek!

and then he wanted to play games at that sick cyber cafe AGAIN.

ohh man.

i cant live without seeing him.

it's been a week since i've met him.

and it's all because of my work.

glad he understands me.

mwaahaahaa.

love you laa pak nenek.

tmr i'm not working again.

nyaahaa.

and yea, the people at my tagboard seems to be a big fan of A.S/avenged sevenfold.

hahahaa.

thats good but neehhh, i dun really like them.

my bf likes them.

he's really updated of coz.

i havta clean my hse alredy.

and im hungry.

and ohh! i hate red lights! i mean, menses.

i've been having cramps thruout.

shucks.

bbye all.

keep tagging.

((=

2006-06-19T11:40:00.000+08:00

avenged sevenfold; i won't see you tonight

i'm listening to this old old shit by avenged sevenfold.

aaahaaa.

my honey love was the one who told me about this band.

not badd laa some songs.

now it's on MTV!

wtf.

ohwells, somebody has been waiting for this;

HAPPY 14TH BURFDAY TO NURUL ASHIKIN!

ahaaa. still small!

hahaha.

my mum bought her a CHICKEN LITTLE swensen's cake laa sia.

omg.

stupid and lame, yet nyce.

but actually, i wanted mummy to buy the donkey cake

as she's LAZY..

mwaahaaahaaa.

i didnt give her anything!

for what!

haha. nehh, will give her money when i get my pay laa.

then i wanna go shopping okehh.

heeee.

today, im not going out.

i've wasted my money on ciggies ytd.

nyaahaa.

so today, sit at home and ROT!

okehh?

okeh, i wanna eat ytd's icecream cake agaen laa.

nyaahaa.

((=

p/s; to you guys hu dun understand the previous post, just forget abt it okay?

mwaaahs.

2006-06-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

get up shut up; crash romeo

just how do you feel when...

you get backstabbed by a friend?

you are being humiliated?

people make up stories about you?

a younger member of the femily is being bullied and you love him/her so much?

he/she cried, telling you what happened?

---------------------------------------

hmm, whatever you guys felt..

i dunnoe.

i had a lot of mixed feelings just now.

thank god yesterday i had a nice talk with my honey love.

he understood me at last.

and today, eventho there was a lil' thing going on, we stayed calm.

he's my best.

and as for my dear lil' syster, im very sorry for you over what happened.

we'll meet that jerk one day and settle our scores yeah.

just stay happy for the next few days.

and as for the JERKS.

i shall not mention ur names.

i noe i m MORE matured and i can think.

i just dun wanna disgrace you guys eventho i can.

somehow, you guys have made up stories which are not true.

you said my syster accused you of stealing smth and she wrote it on her blog?

hello?

blind or what?

she didnt even mention your name or whatsoever.

she just started blogging and that incident was months ago okay?!

we didnt even accuse you or maybe, accuse you officially.

are you saying that you really did steal that thing?

and you're fucking guilty?

omg.

and yea, we didnt tell the whole world about you.

i think you just have this somesort of attitude problem and your bestfriend

have this backstabbing disease as well.

ohwells, im sure you're not satisfied with me still.

whatever it is, just think before you do anything.

the more you do this, the more people will hate you.

especially me.

and im sorry.

i am very protective about both my bf and syster.

actually, anyone related or close to me. even my besties.

`i just hope you grow up.

as for all you blogmates,

sorry for this un-understandable post.

honey love, ilove you so much.

thanks for understanding instead of ending up fighting like we always do.

i love you a lots.

and yea, its growing and i find that it's hard to be replaced.

((=

2006-06-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

crush; cute is what we aim for

im so blardy tired.

uhhm, maybe not.

hmm, i had to work just now.

omg.

my life is getting boring as day goes by.

i think i'm gonna pay a visit to my school tmr.

haahaa.

oh whutever.

i really need to take my homework.

i need to geddit done.

haizz.

im gonna die.

so many things to handle.

somehow, when you have so many things to juggle with,

you'll get more responsible.

that's what i've observed laa.

nehoos, sometimes i feel like smacking that lil' idiot to death.

i mean seriously.

its not my syster okay.

it's somebody else.

its for me to know and for 'you' to find out.

im beat.

need to bathe and smoke.

mwak mwak.

good night all.

((=

and oh, to all those watching world cup, enjoys!

okay, enuff. im LAME, i noe.

2006-06-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

laughing at you; head automatica

so yea, i've been tagged by baby sassy! hoho.

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

*i love ice creams.

*i get very irritated easily.

* i eat a lot! haaha.

*i love designing and editing pics.

* ilove jap food.

*i love singing at weddings.

*i hate seeing people who act like they're one big fuck.

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME

*losing my honey love

*losing my parents

*getting pimples

*may day(the end of the world)

*failing in whatever i do

*insects

*death

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT

*studying politics by emery

*returning the smile you have had from the start by emery

*devil in a midnight mass by billy talent

*the truth about heaven by armor for sleep

*miss murder by AFI

*buried a lie by sense fail

*the curse of curves by cute is what we aim for

7 THINGS I LIKE THE MOST

*shopping

*money

*ice creams

*bags

*shoes

*tops

*my dearest honey love

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST

*whatever

*fuck you

*cheepek

*ohhs, okay

*mampos

*siak uhh

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS

[this is hard man! hahaa.]

*baby iqah

*asoul;effah

*hamizah

*ella

*nani

*FAR!!

*ida lyana, my ex classmate.

` enjoy doing this guys.

anws, when i was abt to choose the 7 ppl, it was so freaking difficult.

hahaa.

2006-06-15T15:14:00.000+08:00

every second; a change of pace

aiyooo.

i dunnoe why i just feel like blogging every now and den.

haiyaaak.

honey love's out to play that stupid DOTA.

im missing him a lot man.

but he doesnt miss me.

bluekk.

what can i do right?

i'm still very smelly.

havent bathe.

ughhh.

im going to bathe and go buy ciggs.

anws, been browsing thru the net and saw some emo wankers.

a lot of them.

omg.

they're so freaking fake.

just because they listen to emocore or emo music, they call themselves emo.

i mean, they don't even dress like emo or even have the idea of what is EMO.

haiyoo.

the world is turning upside down.

mwaahaaa.

whutever laa.

omg, i think i need to rush.

the toilet bowl is calling.

okeh bye all.

maybe i'll blog again later.

haahaa.

make you guys sick of my posts!

heehee.

((=

2006-06-15T00:45:00.000+08:00

checkmarks; the academy is...

im going bonkers.

problems keeps adding up man.

i'm so stressed out.

i just dun have the perfect person to talk to.

haizz.

im so fucked up.

on one hand, im getting fatter and uglier and i so hate it.

on another hand, i havta work and i have no time for my honey love.

and another thing, problems keeps arising at home;

home keeps getting messy and i'm always the one who has to clean up.

its so infuriating and im always feeling so tired these few days.

fuck life man.

so many problems.

so many things to settle.

studies? ughh!!

school's starting the week after next.

omg.

time flies so fast.

maybe i wouldn't even realise that im already 16 when the time comes.

to honey love;

i dunnoe how but i wish i would have trust you more.

i love you a lot okay.

its been nearly 7 mths.

im glad.

i noe u're always there for me but sometimes maybe we have different

point of views about certain things.

i know when i need a shoulder to cry on, u're always there.

but im afraid it won't happen anymore.

i dun think you really understand me and is ready to listen

to whatever shits that im going to blabber.

maybe things aren't going to be the same anymore.

and furthermore, im getting uglier and i know you can find

better grrls out dere. haizz.

im really stressed out this time.

))=

to my mummy;

dearest mummy,

im sorry. i can't be your so-perfect-and-obliging daughter anymore.

i can't help it.

things are getting out of hand now.

i think it's time for you to discipline my very own syster.

i'm not a robbot.

i can't and i won't be anymore.

i find it very annoying.

i just can't tolerate another shit.

you're a perfect mother i know.

i love you a lot.

but i must change for my own good.

im not gonna spoil her.

to dearest syster;

please, start being independent.

im tired.

stop being too spoilt ohkay.

i love you a lot toos dear syster.

pity your mum.

not me.

i just wanna see you succeed.

2006-06-14T17:53:00.000+08:00

sum1 u dun expect?!

can you dear fucker just get away from my tagboard?!

you're just freaking disgusting.

and lucky for you, i've no time to entertaining your shits.

im bullshit?!

then how about you?

ohh cme' on!

how do you even noe im full of bullshits?!

haha. anws, no worries.

im gonna ban and delete you as soon as possible.

and yea, did i tell you that you're a freaking coward?

NO?

well then, yes you are one.

haahaa. whutever.

if you say im full of craps,

i can accept.

ohwells, i've no time entertaining you. get lost ohkay fucker?

lots of kicks and punches from me,

phashion.starr*

2006-06-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

poison like your own; rookie of the year

first and foremost..

HAPPY 15TH BURFDAY TO DEAR NATT!

may all your wishes come true and may you live happily ever after.

(what crap!)

uhh, ooh hello humans.

i worked again just now!

replaced my auntie.

nyaahaa.

ohwells, i have nths to blog.

ohh ohh!

i got loads of free food just now.

hahaha.

honey love's asleep i think.

ahaa. he didnt call me.

uhhh-huh.

kinda sadd.

nehoos, im happy for my syster for having to

patch up with a human ex-bf.

haha.

hope he takes good care of her this time.

bye all.

im so nonsensical.

and yea, to NISA;

hahaha. i dun hate cats!

read again, it says 2 truths and 1 lie.

that's the lie laa! hahaha.

gd nyt sweethearts.

i love my honey love!

2006-06-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

and so.. i've been tagged by two kids.

hahaa.

or rather, two blogmates.

hmm, i'll answer to sashalaguna's request first then..

list down de 3 names i go by:

-atikah(friends)

-atyk(close friends)

-nurul(family)

name de 3 parts of heritage:

-pure javanese

-pure malay

-and i dunnoe what else. ((=

3 things tt scares me most:

-losing my bf

-losing my parents

-nightmares

3 everday essential:

-food

-computer

-my bf

3 things tt ure wearing:

-long pants

-t-shirt

-undergarments

3 fave bands/singers:

-underoath

-emery

-billy talent

3 things i want in a relationship:

-for him to love me more and more each day

-more trust

-less fights

2 truths n 1 lie:

-i hate cats

-i like ice creams

-i like pretzels

3physical things abt de opp sex tt appeals me:

-dressing

-the way the talks

-looks

3 fave hobbies:

-singing

-dancing

-wasting money

3 things tt i wan badly now:

-a new top

-a new pants

-gold earrings

3 places i wana go for vacation:

-maldives

-mauritius

-hawaii

3 things i wana try doing:

-stop depending on the bf

-be more bold

-not to be over-sensitive

3 pple i wana see doing tis:

-atyque

-firah

-iqa

((=

------------------------------------------

now the request frm yana lee

Name 3 schools you went to :

-keng seng primary

-teck whye primary

-greenridge secondary

3 things in your purse/handbag :

-key

-wallet

-ciggarettes

Name 3 things you do when you're really stressed :

-smoke

-go out

-cry

Name 3 places you go on a daily basis :

-bedroom

-work

-toilet

Name 3 favorite fruits :

-honeydew

-apple

-i dutnoe what else!

Name 3 names you go by :

-atikah

-atyk

-nurul/nunun

Name 3 of your favorite foods :

-salmon sashimi

-smoked salmon

-pepper lunch's salmon&chicken combo

Name 3 things you are wearing right now :

-long pants

-tshirt

-hairband

Name 3 who is in the house with you :

-sophie(mycat)

-nobody

Name 3 who are you thinking about right now :

-me

-myself

-and i

Who did you last talk to on the phone?

-my bf

Who do you sit next to in your 5th period class?

-alone or with widya

Who was the last person you told you loved?

-my bf

Who do you wish you were with right now?

-hanah

Who gets on your nerves the most at school?

-i dunnoe. i dun remember!

Where do you live?

-teck whye

Where is your phone?

-on my bed

Where is the last place you took a ride to?

-from teck whye to cityhall

Where in your house are you?

-bedroom

What was the last thing you ate?

-soup kambing

What color shirt are you wearing?

-white

What is the closest item near you that is blue?

-dove deodorant cover

What do you like best about school?

- myfriends and canteen. can eat!!

What is your favorite color?

-blue, white, orange, green

What do you wear more: jeans or shorts?

-jeans

What is the last movie that you watched?

-x-men 3

When did you start school?

-11 years ago

When is your birthday?

-9th july. and i can't wait! hoho.

When did you last go to the mall?

- haha. such stupid things. i dun rmbr of coz.

When was the last time you bought a pair of pants?

- i forgot

When did you last burn something?

-jus nw. my ciggs.

And de next victims are...

-MiZGREEN

-atikah pollydolly*

-ira spydey

-anne

-aurora

2006-06-11T00:17:00.001+08:00

stay on the ground; armor for sleep

heyhoo hello alls.

heehee.

today, i worked afternoon shift and tmr, morning.

suntec is having their midnight shopping today in line

with GSS.

hoho.

pity all my neighbours like gogo balls and bravissimo.

good luck huh u all.

and yea, carrefour was like hell just now.

it was so damn blardy packed.

hoho.

pity the workers.

went to eat at secret recipe after work just now.

hohoho.

bleaargh.

my newly wed cuzzy is coming over with the groom tmr.

and i actually have to follow my parents to a wedding.

but i havta work.

pics will be posted SOON!

ohwells, gd nyt alls.

=))

2006-06-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

stay on the ground; armor for sleep

heyhoo hello alls.

heehee.

today, i worked afternoon shift and tmr, morning.

suntec is having their midnight shopping today in line

with GSS.

hoho.

pity all my neighbours like gogo balls and bravissimo.

good luck huh u all.

and yea, carrefour was like hell just now.

it was so damn blardy packed.

hoho.

pity the workers.

went to eat at secret recipe after work just now.

hohoho.

bleaargh.

my newly wed cuzzy is coming over with the groom tmr.

and i actually have to follow my parents to a wedding.

but i havta work.

pics will be posted SOON!

ohwells, gd nyt alls.

=))

2006-06-10T02:47:00.000+08:00

returning the smile you have had from the start; emery

hello alls.

im back blogging.

im so very tired.

haha. the same old thing.

tired, tired, tired!

ouhh whutever.

i love my work man.

heehee.

i dutnoe why luhh.

i think it's because i can see a lot of ppl uuh.

tmr, or later.. almost all of the shops will be opened till 1am.

exceptional for us.

nyeehee.

ohkay best.

all because of GSS laa.

hoho.

can't wait for my pay man.

and my burfday of coz.

i dun think im gonna celebrate.

it's a sunday and i will be working.

so whutever laa.

and then my hanah is going to hold a party at her hse on 1st of july.

waahaa.

cool.

also, im really sorry to all those whom i've not replied ur tags.

hmm.. actually, i've nth to talk abt laa.

but i just wanna tell u guys abt my experience taking

the MRT every morning.

of coz i see a lot of ppl.

some thin, fat, pretty, ugly, normal & FOREIGNERS.

speaking of which.

while i was on morning shift one day, some caucasians

entered the train.

they were super fucking cute i tell you.

its like they were only wearing shorts, shirts and slippers.

yet, they look cute and their hair!!!

they look like some slackened indie starr.

hoho.

ohkay crap.

bye all.

working afternoon shift tmr.

and yup, happy watching the world cup to all the boys&men.

luckily my bf doesnt really like soccer.hoho. =x

2006-06-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

miss murder; AFI

hello alls.

im so very tired today.

hmm, i've changed my skin as promised.

i dunnoe.

its kinda plain.

hoho.

im very busy wif work.

and yea, i've been facing a lot of problems.

ferstly, a PUBLIC apology to SWEETSTAR.

i didnt do it on purpose.

i didnt mean to.

i suddenly talked about it.

so sorry!

))=

im mad about my syster.

maybe i'll keep it to myself.

im currently talking to my baby.

i miss him.

i've not been meeting him for 4 days alredy.

im so dead tired and i have no time to meet him.

haizz.

i have some probs with him eventho we seem happy.

i'll bury my sorrows deep inside heart then.

i just have no one to talk to.

haizz..

ohwells, im tired.

i need to bathe.

bye all.

2006-06-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

the truth about heaven; armor for sleep

hello all!

im so very tired.

as in super!

umm, work is HECTIC!

yupp2, it is.

anws, its located at tower four and its behind angie the choice.

its very small.

its called an island.

the place is nice but its very tiring to stand all day.

yupp2.

i worked for a damn blardy 12 hrs, without sitting.

we had to set up the shop.

and the 'mafan' thing is everything must be kept AFTER working.

EVRY single thing!

haha.

anws, got to noe a new fren, alan.

he works next to me at bravissimo.

he's fun.

i have a new colleague anw.

she's jasmine.

she's fun toos.

hahaks.

okay laa but its real tiring.

hahs.

ohhhoo.

im going to bathe!

nyts all.

keep on tagging dudes&babes! ((=

2006-05-31T18:01:00.000+08:00

unfaithful; rihanna

i dunnoe why i like this song so much.

hoho.

whutever laa.

anws, i cant post the pics up.

blardy hell!

ughh!

im so blardy bored right now.

and so, i've filled myself up with housechores and stoopid

stuffs which i dunnoe what.

wth.

im finally starting work tmr!!!!!

im so loving this.

and i cant wait for this saturday and sunday.

and yea, no more 'merayap-ing' anymore.

work is gonna occupy my life for the whole month.

i hope i still have time for my dearest honey love tho.

haha.

whutever.

anws, i've been bloghopping from just now.

and somehow,

i don't understand how some people can stand their own blogs

without a tagboard.

hoho.

if u're getting away from a faggot, i think that's

not the way.

u can simply ban the person's IP add isn't it?

unless of course u're using other tagboards other than cbox.

i think these bloggers shud get a hold of themselves.

what for be scared of some unknown faggot right?

haha.

so yea, im just typing this out because i feel like it.

it feels weird seeing a blog without a tagboard.

next, as you can see.. its been a while since i've put up my dearest

honey love's picture on my blogskin..

so therefore, you can expect the next skin to be up in a

few days time.

it has the combination of blue, white and black.

and it has OUR picture.

and i think that blogskin is gonna last for 3 or4 wks

coz i won't have time to change blogskins once i start working.

unless, i have another idea or sth.

so, just look out okay.

and pls dun get sick of me and my ideas.

hahahaa.

im just too bored.

that's the reason why i've been changing my blogskins.

hoho.

look out ayt.

HAVE A GREAT DAY GRRLS&BOYS!

2006-05-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

my body is a metaphor; yesterdays rising

hello hello!

im back home now.

im very tired okay!

its like evryday, not enuff sleep.

i'll sleep at 3 or 5 and will wake up at 12 like dat.

my grandma will automatically shout if i wake up late.

thats why sometimes i prefer home.

i'm always pampered and usually at home, i get to sleep

long hours without anybody disturbing.

which is like so very fun.

heeeheee.

ohwells, update update.

hmmm.. as told, i went to karaoke yesterday.

with my hot syster, my syster's fren, azura & me!

just the three of us luhh.

hoho.

but fun gilerr laa.

kept on singing and singing.

my syster's fren joined sg idol.

and she was kicked out after the theatre audition.

hoho.

kesian kamuu.

hehe.

and so, since its a smoking room, i kept smoking and drinking

plain water.

after which, took cab to town to meet up with my mummy and kikyn.

went to bodyshop.

bought my facial tea-tree stuffs, my perfume, a body mist and

my blusher.

i like the colour very very much!

hahahaha.

den, went to swensens to eat.

my sys spent $120 for a meal for 4 plus ice creams.

when we were finished, we went out, took a walk.

bought a white watch.

and bleargh! went home lorr.

my grandma's hse i mean.

slept at 3 ytd.

today..

woke up.

bathed, and went to amk central with syster.

bought blusher brush and headband.

i parted with my syster and off i went to tamp.

met with baby and sani.

took bus to teck y, my hse.

chil at my hse.

dyed kikyn's hair but tk menjadee!

hoho.

padan muke kau laa.

stubborn maa!

send baby home at 8 plus.

and now here i am!

hoho.

and yea, some kpos saw me at tamp with baby and he/she

reported to my mum.

^&*(%$#%%@^&

ughh!

hate these kinda ppl.

mind ur own business can?

ohh please! '-.-

mrepek sungguh!

nehoos, i wanna say tks to all my lovely taggers who have been

tagging me religiously!

hoho.

mcm amek award plak!

haha.

tks u guys!

P/S; pics will be up tmr. but not many pics laa!

GD NYTE ALL!

2006-05-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

hellos all!

im now at my granny's place.

wells, im kinda tired.

yesterday, i went out with MiZGREEN and baby.

went to esplanade.

hoho.

had fun.

was approached by diyana halik, aaron aziz's wife.

abt the dance thingy..

altho i like to dance, i just dun have the time to do so.

was a fun day.

met baby and off i go to my grandma's plc.

on that day, i saw AJ, wanie, zul (my syster's fren), arep, and blaa blaa

blaa.

hohoho. i forgot luhh.

den just nw, was my sys's big day.

she's now officially engaged!

will upload pics once i get a hold of it.

and for these few days, i'll be staying here, accompanying my

sys.

hmm, tmr going karaoke wif my elder syster.

alaa, enjoy before wednesday luhh.

wen i start working, i cant enjoy!

hohoho.

i miss my baby anws.

yesterday, i cudnt sleep.

slept at 5.

kept thinking abt him till a suddenly i got a big headache.

and i had a bad dream.

i dreamt that he said he couldnt wait to start another new r-ship.

and i kept thinking abt it..

haizz.

ohwells, im tired.

bbye all.

((=

2006-05-26T15:33:00.000+08:00

billy talent; devil in a midnight mass

hellos all.

im so the fucking bored.

hohoho.

okay wtf.

did i tell u guys i've not been coming skool for the past two days.

so the lazy.

hohoho.

hmmm.. im gonna head to my mummy's workplace ltr.

must take over for a while.

she wants to go somewhere with her friend.

okaylaa whutever.

i dutnoe where to go tmr.

i wanna buy a pair of sneakers luhh!

must ask mummy for money..

hehehe.

ohwells, this sunday is my elder sister's engagement day

and next sunday is my cousin's wedding.

omg.

time flies fast.

the last time i thought these events are going to be one month

away.

but nevertheless, i can't wait for these events.

it's so going to be exciting.

and yeaaa, i can't wait for next saturday.

its like, after work, i havta go my cousin's place and help.

hohoho.

im not gonna help.

im gonna have fun!

but not with my cousins.

i hate a few.

hahs.

i havta talk to one of my cousin who's p6 this yr.

she's slacking like hell.

her parents expect her to go express and her PSLE is only 4 mths away,

yet she passed only malay.

how the hell?!

hahas.

and she made a condition with her mum that if she passed,

she wants a blardy hp.

what a way for a p6 grrl.

how the hell is she gonna pass? hahs.

im so gonna have a word with her.

ohwells, im late.

bbye all.

((=

2006-05-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

checkmarks; the academy is..

lalalalla. hello people.

i've changed skin again.

i know what went wrong alredy.

i can't design with a fancy background. it must be plain and

stupid.

bluekk.

anws,

i watched x-men3; the last stand.

its the bestest best movie of the year!

i rate 5/5.

hahaha.

i don't wanna elaborate further.

u guys must watch!

hohoho.

ohwells,

i havta clean the hse.

gonna head town tmr.

im starting work next week!

how exciting!

hahhaa

tata!

2006-05-24T14:12:00.000+08:00

planning a prison break; the receiving ends of sirens

i havent been updating properly.

actually.

im very fucked up.

firstly, my adobe doesnt work properly.

i was supposed to do a layout for nana and her class.

but the software just wouldn't work.

or maybe its my computer.

coz everytime i save my work, it will really turn out verymrepek.

okay, so here's an example.

do click on the picture for a larger view.

like wtf ryt.

haizz.

i hope this thing would recover soon.

anyone can help?

pls msn me yeaa?

ohwells, a part of the sadness, im very happy!

hahhaa

its because im gonna be paid $7 per hour by my boss!

hahaha.

its all because i have experience.

if i work 8 hr per day, 6 days a week for one whole month,

im gonna earn $1344.

coolness!

and since i still don't have CPF,

everything's gonna be in cash!

woohooo!

this is super coolness!

hahaha.

hmmm, i guess i must work hard.

hahaks.

i love working!

heeeheee.

adios! ((=

ITS ALL ABOUT YOU

2006-05-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

international you day; no use for a name

this song is especially dedicated for you baby.

it's alredy been half a year.

me and you.

we've gone through all this together.

i can't believe we pulled through.

there were ups and downs,

you still stayed.

despite knowing my weaknesses,

you still stayed.

i didnt picture you to be someone like that in the first place.

you proved me that you weren't like other guys.

you showed your sincerity.

you showed that you care.

i love to reminisce all those bitter sweet moments.

it always makes my love for you grow even bigger and bigger.

you're just so special.

so special that your absence is going to leave a great impact on me.

you're the one who told me that i was special.

you make me realise that love wasnt about material.

you always support me in whatever i do.

i can' believe it.

we're this far.

and along the way, if any of us were to back out,

i think i'm never gonna find someone like you.

of all the hugs and kisses i've ever received,

yours is the best.

of all the love that was showered,

yours was the best.

and if you ask me of all the boys,

i'd pick you.

because you're the best..

and your love?

i can't find it anywhere else.

i love you mohammad khairul faiz.

HAPPY 6 MTHS DEAREST.

plus, happy 16th burfday ida lyana!

2006-05-21T20:05:00.000+08:00

studying politics; emery

hey all.

been very bored today.

wtf.

haizz.

ohwells, he did it again today.

he didnt tell me that he was going out and hell yea, i got

very mad.

quite mad.

i was waiting for his second call the whole day.

ugh.

i was trying to be very nice ytd.

i didnt even disturb him when he was with his friends.

and i gave him time to play his darn PSP.

i stayed home ytd, kept everything to myself.

i didnt even trouble him.

haizz.

why's he doing things i don't like?!

im really gonna ignore him tonight.

i smsed him saying,"jus dun call me tonyt.. im going out.. dun ask whr..

haizzz."

fuckk.

he deserves it.

and im glad he doesnt read my blog anymore.

ughh.

='(

anws, you guys must

read this story.

its fucking interesting.

its kinda like an online storybook.

but the story is nice.

im only at chapter 11 now..

hahaks.

cool luhh.

read okays.

http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyoucharacters.htm

okays all.

im going out.

with my family.

eat eat eat!

2006-05-20T19:48:00.000+08:00

chaos; mute math

OMG.

im fucking bored siaa.

HELP!

okay daa uhh. jgn mrepek ehh atikah.

anws, been downloading songs, bloghopping and

ntahh laa aper lagee.

mcm aku ingat jerr-

uhhhh..

okay im so very bored.

and yea..

hws my song?

cute kn?

tau tkper.

ehh da laa.

ohkaybye!

2006-05-20T15:10:00.000+08:00

hopeless believing; saosin

heyhoos all.

im so fucking bored.

i waanna go out but im super tired siaa.

hahaks.

ohwells, let me tell you all abt yesterday!

hohoho.

wells, like i said laa, i thot i was late.

ughh.

@%#$&#%%#$

haizz.

first, headed to my mummy workplace.

asked for money!

hohoho.

and yea, packed chocolates for the BF and the bday grrl.

hahaks.

as i didnt wanna see my boss,

i headed straight to lucky plaza to buy ciggy laa.

den, called baby, he said he was at bencoolen laa what laa.

he thinks i dunnoe.

just what was he thiking man.

i told him i was going to esplanade.

and he told me wan(bigberdiee) was on the way to esplanade toos.

-the BF is always hopeless. -.-'

so, went to somerset MRT.

otw, met some ite simei frens.

they were so nice to me.

thanks yea you three!

hehe. so sweet.

took the train together.

then, when i reached cityhall, called bigberd uhhs.

ferst asked me to wait.

after that, called me again and told me, to meet him

at the escalator heading to esplanade.

luckily he wasnt late.

hahaks.

the first thing he did when he saw me was he pinched my fabs!!!!

fuck u laa wan..

haizz.

okay laa, then talk2 to esplanade.

sat next to the performing live band thingy.

talk2, smoke2, and ate ice cream.

after 30 to 45 minutes, BF and sani came.

okaylaa, dats when wan started calling me wild bore.

haizz.

lyk cheebai laa he.

hahas.

then, ridhwan came.

chill out uhh.

then there was not time where i couldnt stand that big berdie so i

went staright to rooftop alone.

ahaha.

nice time laa.

it was abt going to 7.

den baby came.

he asked me whats wrong.

then he keeps pulling me hard.

and i got fucked up.

he keeps commenting every single thing abt me.

he didnt use to do that.

haizz.

we ended up quarelling.

i told him i wanted to go home.

so i asked him whether he could pass the chocolates to widya.

he said im her fren, pass it myself.

haiz.

i decided to give him back the necklace.

haizz.

i really didnt know what was i doing uhh.

then he say, if wanted a break-up, den its okay, just keep the necklace.

but i told him i dun wan to break-up with him..

its just that i dun feel i deserve his love and blablabla.

i talked crap uhh.

i then decided to leave him alone.

wtf.

i cried all alone.

then he came, he asked me again..

do you really wanna leave me?

haizz.

who'd the hell wanna waste 6mths sia!

i kept quiet but was still sobbing.

then, out of a sudden, i hugged him.

i just dun wanna let him go laa.

i still LOVE HIM A LOT.

maybe he might not realise luhh.

omg, im never gonna do that again.

dun wanna lose him..

ohwells, cont..

we went down to join the rest.

i told my BF that i wanna go home after meeting wid.

met widya, decided to go back up..

then, chill till 9 and went back.

walked slowly uhh. took the peninsula way.

hahaks.

talked and talked.

and i was sweating like hell.

hahaks.

wth.

at the MRT,

went separate ways with baby.

took train with wid and hafiz.

and done, i was back home.

talked to baby and went to sleep.

and today, i dun think im goin out luh..

hahaks.

ohwells, bbye all.

HAVE A NICE SATURDAY!

2006-05-19T14:19:00.000+08:00

beware the jub jub and shun the frumious bandersnatch; forgive durden

hello all.

i'm very LAZY.

hurrhurr.

okay mrepek. -.-

haiyaaa.

my bum is very heavy luhh.

i need to meet baby and meet WIDYAFITRI.

hahhaa.

ouhyaa.

HAPPY 16TH BURFDAY DEAR WiDYAFITRI!

hahaks.

ur present is coming up on monday okay?

hahaks.

will meet mummy first laa.

need to ask money mahh.

haiyoo.

den after that, go meet baby&sani.

then after that, meet widya, hafiz and his fren, khaibedok?

uhh, whoever laa.

still, now i havent bathe.

ehh malas nyer akuu.

nk tdo uhhh.

maaaaamaaaaa.

nk duit uhh..

hiakhiak.

eh mls uhh!

okay uhh.

im craazy alredy.

later i late, later they scold me.

now i dunnoe what to wear.

eeeeeee.

irritgiler seyy.

ohkaybye.

2006-05-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

skeptics and true believers; the academy is..

hellos.

yes, im still down.

but not to worry,

im not going to post another sad post.

((=

here are the pics for ytd;

me & kikyn

dearest mummy

dearest mummy & elder syster

her again

okay, i know im fat! haha.

yesterday, i went to fish&co with my syters and my mummy.

it was supposed to be a post-mother's day celebration.

hahaks.

was fun laa.

my sys spent 130 overall.

haha.

seriously, FUN.

heheh.

okay laa.

BYE.

wish u apologised.

2006-05-18T17:47:00.000+08:00

how to fix everything; bayside

how to fix everything.

that's the question in my head now.

haizz.

feel so down these few days.

feel so neglected.

lets say, you guys have someone you always rely on.

you consider that someone your evrything..

then that someone suddenly starts to dirft away..

holy shit.

that's what happened to me.

im utterly lost for words.

haizz.

i treat him as a bestfren, a soulmate, a boyfriend..

basically he's my everything..

is it so hard to leave a call or msg saying that you're okay

and that i need not worry abt you..

that's all i ever need.

instead, you go missing for a whole day without me knowing

what you're up to out there.

yes, you may say your mum cares more.

haizz.

you don't appreciate my love..

you wouldn't say that if you knew my intention was good.

and because of this, it leads up to fights every now and then.

another thing, you make me the last resort.

always.

you make plans with your friends without telling me now.

haizz.

what did i do wrong to you?

and you still say that myPMS can be controlled.

ask all the grrls laa.

they'll give you the answers.

and yea, at night, you talk crap with me whilst you play with your PSP

and when we get okay, you start feeling sleepy..

haizz.

and i..

i keep on having sleepless nights.

last night, i cudnt sleep.

i had a huge flashback on our past 6 mths.

i cried alone while cuddling in bed.

i do miss him.

i seriously do.

i wanna be with him all alone.

i wanna hug him.

that's all i want from him.

im really feeling so down.

haizz.

i need him but he doesnt care.

haizz.

i feel so caught up.

FUCK EVERYTHING!

2006-05-17T17:17:00.000+08:00

day late friend; anberlin

i m totally disgusted wif people who dun rmbr to sms or call their GFS.

so therefore,

mr mohammad khairul faiz,

pls dun find me tonight.

i wanna play the same game.

i just can't take it okay!

ughhhH!

fuck life.

'-.-

im heading town.

anyway, sorry ehh.

i changed skin again.

cannot take it siaa.

haha.

tempted.

blueeekkK!

mwahahahah.

mwak mwak to all.

((=

*except for that stoopid BF.

ughh.

i hate it when he does this.

2006-05-16T13:29:00.000+08:00

the future freaks me out; motion city soundtrack

HELLOS ALL.

i didnt go skoo agaen today!

hahahaha.

im damn super duper lazy!

haiyaaa..

anws, im super duper HAPPY!

hahahahahhaaha.

wells, firstly, i got 20/25 for my social studies mid year

paper.

thats like, 80/100!

woahhH!

throughout my whole life,

i've never ever passed social studies.

it was such a DRAG!

and yea, i didnt know i cud do that well.

ahahhha.

hohohohoho.

next, the boss in suntec's choc shoppe outlet may wanna take

me as a PART-TIMER!!

dat means, i'll have money once skoo reopens!

woaaahhh!

this is so superb!!

man.

hahaha.

ohwells, before i get things outta hand, i wanna bathe!

btw, how's the song? hahha. hope ya'll like it!

i wanna change my blogskin again! hahaks.

TC all!

2006-05-15T15:36:00.000+08:00

never take frienship personal; anberlin

heyhoos all.

i didnt go skoo today.

very the lazy!

hahahah.

nehoos, went to TKC ytd.

i bought a nice purple kebaya for the upcoming occasion.

bought it at RH.

nice laa.

worth it also..

hahaks.

then went ECP ytd.

so crowded siaa.

nehoos, this wednesday is holiday!!!

haha.

my skoo was used for the election last week and since

they cudnt declare anyday last week as it is exam week,

they decided to postpone it to this wednesday.

cool uhh.

and yea, im gonna work at suntec's outlet next week.

but for one week only..

i think i'll get like only 300++

okayy laa.

for 6 days onlyy.

still money what!

den im planning to werk somewhre on june holidays.

better work than do anything stoopid kn..

hahha.

ohwells,

bbye all.

im lazy laa today.

HAVE A NICE DAY ALL YOU KIDDOS!

((=

2006-05-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL THE HOT MAMAS!

2006-05-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

three letters to describe yesterday..

F.U.N

though it was kinda tiring, i really had fun.

in the morning, i had to open the shop for my mummy

while she goes to the doctor.

then, waited till i dunnoe what time..

11 plus uhh i think..

then sit and sit and eat and eat

and blaablaablaa..

untill about 1plus, my aunty called and she said she could

take over my mum as she knew my mum was sick.

hehee.

how great.

so, a half day for mummy.

about 3plus, we went to taka.

i bought a highlighter(even though i've completed all colors)

and my correction tape refill.

heeeheee.

im a stationery freak.

nehoos, then we went to cold storage to buy some stuffs.

my mum bought about 5 tops today and i bought only one,

which was the FOX polo tee i wanted.

heee.

happy laa.

bought aunty anne's and we went home.

i bathed, i changed and off i go.

where to?

town again.

haha.

with my syster this time

she wanted to buy a new top.

so, we went to far east for in search of her new top.

and yea, we found one very nice one at miss notty.

heeeks.

she was happy with her choice and so was i as for the

ferst time, she didnt take much time to decide.

hahaha.

ohwells, then we proceed to city hall.

a lot of people kept disturbing us today as we were very noisy

altho there was only the two of us.

wtf.

haha.

alighted at city hall and went to peninsula.

just walk2 onlyy.

saw irfan and friends.

hwahwa!

kept asking us where we're heading to.

hahaks.

KPO sia u!

after that, went to esplanade uhh.

all the way, i was very super duper noisy and crazy.

dunnoe why laa.

suddenly feel so hyper!

hahaks.

wanted to sit by the river but then there were a lot of people.

and there was a performance..

but we didnt bother to look at it.

haha.

we went to the toilet and straight up to the rooftop.

i saw elyana and hidayah, my ex-pri sch mates.

we sat beside each other but they didnt recognise

me.

haha. STM uhh u all.

then i asked them laa whether they noe me or not..

kwangkwangkwang!

after a while, that freak, irfan and friends arrived.

okay, lyk cheebai.

he was blind uhh.

hahha.

cannot see.

but fun uhh wif him.

very crazy also.

kept perstering me for lighter.

got cigg but dun have lighter..

-.-'

hahha.

oh yea, before that, baby and sani and fadly arrived first.

sani and fad wasnt in a good mood.

bluek bluek.

pity sani.

then smoke, smoke, smoke.

suddenly my baby sugested to have a drink by the river.

haiyaa!

want to drink also dunno hw to tell me.

anyhow onlyy.

ishkkk.

i feel so sick lor wen he does dat.

ughh!

was so bored that i asked my bf to accompany me to

7-eleven, its's a store and more!

hahaha.

bought chips and twix.

im addicted to twix~!

all bcoz of baby!

hahha.

den half way back, fad wanted to go back.

and yea, i saw shasha-rejected there.

hahaks.

walked back den chill at esplanade.

blardy police laa.

evrytime i wanna smoke, there're always there.

fuck siaa.

then about 9 plus, went home.

took cabby.

saw lan, baby's friend and zul, kikyn's friend.

hahas.

at teck y, bought for my mum some medicated plasters.

she sick mahh.

den went home.

i ate smoked salmon!!!

i got so high wen i ate it!

it was so fucking delicious!

hahaha.

ohwells, thats for ytd.

wanna get ready.

gonna find outfits for my cuzzy's wedding.

what a drag~

HAVE A NICE DAY ALL!

2006-05-13T09:00:00.000+08:00

act appalled; circa survive

hellos all.

im early ryt?

ahah.

yea, for the first time, i am early.

why?

because i have to head to my mum's shop and open it

for her while she heads to the doctor.

waaahaaa.

ohwells, as she's sick..

i guess i'll just have to do it..

heeeeee.

anws, i pity my baby a lots uhh.

i mean, seriously uhh.

i'm always making him angry and always shooting at him.

hahaa.

its not that i wanna do that, it's just that my stoopid fucking

PMS are uncontrollable.

do you grrls agree with me?

when it comes to PMS, it's sometimes hard to control

yourself.

haizzz.

and ytd, we had a tiff.

partly because not much attention was paid to me

on that day..

haiyaaa.

i can be so selfish laa.

haizz.

but at times, i dun wish to be ignored.

well, that's me.

i dun wanna do that to him but sometimes,

its killing me okayy..

im sorry baby.

im just so used to being so very close to you.

you would call me every now and then..

haiaya..

and when you drift away, awful thots

gets into my mind.

im so sorry...

okay, dats so EMO.

ohkayBYE all!

HAVE A NICEDAY! ((=

saturday is a stylish day!

2006-05-12T18:56:00.000+08:00

attention attention; the academy is..

HELLOS!

im sooo super duper bored.

anws, im addicted to this song sia!

"attention attention may i have all your

eyes and ears to the front of the room..

if only.. if only for one second..."

hehehehe.

okay im nuts.

my limewire lykk FUCKK siaa.

i wanted to download my songs but halfway it

was disconnected.

fuck siaa.

haiyoo.

nw, i have to start all over again.

hmphh.

today is soo veryy

BORING!!

tho alot of shows are on tv,

im still not interestedd!!

wth.

daddy's gonna bring us out to eat later at 9...

meanwhile, i just have to enjoy myself with

my ice cream again..

hehehe.

im getting FAT!!!

and my bum's getting more bigger toos!

that's what my mum said laa.

hahaks.

but actually, its alredy natural.

it was like that since birth.

god created me like that..

what to do..

hehehe.

ohwells, i need to link sally and update my pics.

heeehooohooo.

anws, happy vesak day or maybe,

HAPPY PUBLIC HOLIDAY LAA!

haha.

and yea, not forgetting the assholic

faryzal,

HAPPY BURFDAY ASSHOLE!

ohkaybye!

2006-05-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

WARNING; EVERYTHING IS

IN REVERSED ORDER.

THANKYOU.

\m/

i was cuddling in his arms.. ((=

my cute bf! ((=

2006-05-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

the artist in the ambulance; thrice

hello all!

im here to update..

im kinda bored acutally.

currently, im at my mummy's workplace,

taking over her while she sleeps.

sh'es not feeling well uhh.

heeeks.

well, yesterday..

i met baby!

ahaha.

he was with shahiran.

went to eat at MOS burger at CWP.

then smoke and smoke..

then around 8, i had to head to bugis.

sent him to the bustop

and i met kikyn at wdl mrt station and off

we go to bugis.

met my elder syster and my mother.

my syster's the shop in-charge for NIKE airport

but instead, ytd, she was posted to the bugis outlet.

went to disturb her there.

and i saw an orange colored NIKE bag.

it was so very pretty.

and yea, since i wanted a sling bag,

i told my mummy i wanted it.

and so, im gonna have it next week

but with 40% off.

staff purchase laa.

ahhaa.

all paid by my mummy.

weeeheee.

COOLNESS uhh.

then, while waiting for my syster to close the

shop, the TRIOS went to eat at swensen.

i ate my meal and my favourite chocolate freckles peak

ice-cream.

and my elder syster joined in.

she's going KL today.

with her bf and friends and all..

blaablaablaa.

after everything finished,

we went home lorr.

heeeheee.

was okay laa yesterday.

heeeks.

ooohhlaalaaaa.

ohkaybye.

bluek bluek!

((=

2006-05-10T16:21:00.000+08:00

the hardest part; coldplay

hello hello!

im very HAPPY!

hehehe.

my exams are finally over~!

weeeeheeeeee.

hehehe.

going out later.

meet my baby darling.

heeeeks.

happy burfday to haryati!

hahaha.

my 'mother' in skoo.

hehehe.

and yea, today's the bitch's burfday toos.

wtf.

ohwells, enjoy ur day ppl.

will update again.

((=

2006-05-09T14:03:00.000+08:00

pens and needles; hawthorne heights

hello hello!

i just got back from school.

as usual laa.

heee.

tmr's my last paper and at 9.45 sharp,

is officially my holiday!

hehehe.

i like!

heeee.

nehoos,

happy burfday to shahidah and iqbal!

happy sweet sixteen the both of you.

im going library again.

i wanna study my chemistry!

weeeheee~

that's one of my favourite subjects.

heheee.

ohwells, TAKE CARE EVRYBODY.

have fun!

2006-05-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

identity crisis; thrice

"if there was a magician who could make our relationship

lasts forever, and it would take a million steps to get to him..

we will climb the steps together and if you get tired, i'll

carry you there..

just for this relationship.."

awww~

so sweet.

hahaha.

hellos!

im back.

went to woodlands just now.

and yea, those were the words my baby told me

just now.

i mean, the words at the utmost top.

heeeeheee.

so happy!

im very very happy just now when i met him.

weeeheeee

i dunnoe laa.

im love struck.

i heart my baby loads.

i studied only for one hour just now.

hahaha.

then, baby came.

i forced him to accompany me to eat.

at 7, we went back to the library.

i couldnt study lorr.

with him..

i only wanted to hug him, look at him all the way..

hhehehee

so cute la he.

i love his new hair..

which is somehow like his old hair..

when its time for him to go back, i felt kinda

sad..

aiyoo..

haiyayaya.

but its okay laa.

there's always a next time.

nehoos, the secret agents are having a gig next week

and hanah and my sister are going.

wahahha.

and next week, its widyafitri's burfday.

she's lucky that it's vesak day.

i'll be going out with her and my other friends.

we'll be having fun!

hehehehe.

ohwells, i wanna resume my studying..

GD NYT ALL..

dearest baby, you're my everthing..

iLOVE YOU WiTH ALL MY HEART.

2006-05-08T12:02:00.000+08:00

planning a prison break; the receiving ends of sirens

see? i told u anonymous..

tho u hate me, there's a lot more others who love me.

ur words wont bring me down.

besides, i remember ytd, u tagged smth like you don't

understand a single word i typed.

i bet you failed your english then.

haha.

you're making a fool out of urself.

heeee.

piss off man.

nehoos ppl,

i slept!

i slept thruout my maths exam!

hahahaha.

go and die with maths.

i hate it to the core.

i wanna score for geog and POA tmr.

and i hope so i will.

*prays hard.

im gonna have a long weekend!!

aahaha.

from thursday to sunday.

thursday is marking day and friday is vesak day!

COOLNESS SIA!

hahaha.

im gonna have loads of freaking fun.

nyehehehe.

ohwells, i think i wanna get ready.

i may be heading tamp or wdl today.

weeeeheeee.

bbye all.

have a great day!

((=

\m/

2006-05-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

DEAREST ANONYMOUS;

WHY DO YOU FUCKING CARE?

DID I OFFEND YOU OR SOMETHING?

AND YEA,

WHY ARE YOU SUCH A COWARD?

WHY NOT JUST REVEAL YOUR IDENTITY AND

MY SCHOOLMATE'S NAME.

BLARDY HELL.

SOMEHOW, I DUN FARKING CARE.

ITS SUCH A WASTE TO BRING ME DOWN.

YOU CAN TRY HARDER NEXT TIME COZ I HAVE

MY FAMILIES, FRIENDS AND MY DEAREST BF

TO SUPPORT ME ALL THE WAY.

I PITY YOU TO THE CORE.

YOU'RE THE SLUT!

YOU'RE THE FUCKING BITCH.

AND ANW, DON'T BOTHER TO TAG COZ I'VE BANNED

AND DELETED YOUR POSTS.

JUST WHAT DO YOU GET BY DOING THIS?

SATISFACTION?

AND HELL YEA, MY BREASTS ARE NOT FAKE.

I CAN ASK THE DOCTOR TO CHECK IT AND I'LL

GIVE YOU THE RESULTS AIGHT.

I BET IT DOESNT EVEN CONTAIN 1% OF SILICON

OR WHATSOEVER.

YOU'RE JEALOUS COZ YOU HAVE A SMALL, FLAT,

UNPROTRUDING BREASTS.

AND YEA, DO YOU EVEN KNOW THE MEANING OF

UNPROTRUDING?

DO YOU NEED ME TO ELABORATE?

YOU SUCK MAN.

YOU SUCK TO THE CORE.

AND HELLO, EVEN IF IM A RETAINER, IM STILL IN

EXPRESS AND I HAVE SCORED B3 OR B4 IN MY ENGLISH.

STILL BAD?

THEN WHAT ABOUT YOU?

LOOK YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR MAN.

FUCK YOU!

AND HAVE YOU EVER SEEN ME IN GEYLANG TILL YOU

HAVE TO SAY THAT I LOOK LIKE ONE OF THEM?

HAH!

YOU'RE SO VERY CHEAP AND FAKE.

YOU'RE JEALOUS.

FUCKING JEALOUS.

BLEARGH!

NEXT TIME, THINK TWICE BEFORE DOING ANYTHING

FUCKER!

RMBR, THERE'S ALWAYS RETRIBUTION.

HOPE IT GETS ON YOU FAST.

SO LONG SUCKER..

2006-05-07T15:07:00.000+08:00

until the day i die; story of the year

2006-05-07T02:17:00.000+08:00

tension; nural

woots all!

yea, i changed my skin despit the busy and

tight schedule. ahaa.

somehow, i feel very bored with that skin.

bluekk!! nyaahaa.

its kinda plain ryt?

sorry laa.

i have no time laa.

its lyk, im running out of ideas and at the same time,

im sick of that skin and i need a change fast.

haha.

all very last minute.

kinda..

haahaa.

wells, today, i met baby!

weeeheee.

okay2, i met him ytd toos.

planned to go town today coz i wanna buy new top..

but we ended up slacking around my area.

am just too tired.

ytd i helped my mum and had to divide time for

him as well.

heee.

monday is maths paper two!

nyeeheee.

boring!

i can assure u guys im gonna sleep for the whole

paper.

i already screwed up my paper one, which is lyk,

50 percent of the whole thing..

so, i dun think paper two's gonna be that easy.

damn shitty.

haizz.

ouhwells, its alredy two..

i wanna turn in.

mwak mwak.

gd nyt.

2006-05-04T19:30:00.000+08:00

blisters and coffee; the classic crime

hellos all!

im back for updating!

wahahaa.

life's great for me!

ahaha.

last sunday, went to watch the wild.

hell, you guys must go watch it man.

it's damn blardy hilarious!

ahaha.

the koala bear is very cute altho i find it very irritating

in the first place.

haha.

i've had my english paper, mother tongue, maths paper 1

and also my social studies.

been going to civic's library to study.

total coolness and fun.

ahah.

went with hanah and kikyn.

i studied like hell for social studies ytd.

and i managed to answer EVRYTHING today.

im amazed with myself man!

and yea, hanah is a REAL lifesaver.

she told me what was going to come out for that

particular paper.

and it was freaking true!

this is the first time ever i studied very hard for social studies.

tmr is my physics paper.

im gonna study later and after my paper tmr,

gonna head town.

waahaaa.

and yea, i've got back my modem.

so no worries, im gonna update often!

hehehe.

anws, i really miss my baby.

haiyooo.

i wanna meet him tmr..

weeeeeee! ((=

TOODLES!

2006-04-27T13:12:00.000+08:00

beating hearts baby; head automatica

heyhoos all.

im currently in school, having my free period.

i've just finished mugging and besides, i really miss blogging.

last sunday was my 5 months!

heeehee.

hmm, life's been kinda fun.

im always getting what i want from my mum.

it's just great fun.

yesterday, my baby had just started working at carrefour.

he worked from 7-11.

that was just for a start.

as for today, he had to work from 9-7.

and he hasnt called me or even msged me.

i miss him!

things between the bf and my syster isnt the same anymore.

they quarelled.

and i have to face it all.

how annoying.

haizzz.

my exams are just next week!

thanks for all your best wishes yea!

heehee.

i'm getting my modem right after mid-year.

haah.

that's what my mum said laa.

how boring life is without my internet.

all i do is sleep now!

haiyoo.

ohwells, i dunnoe what else to update on.

i'll be updating again some other days.

take care all!

heee.

((=

2006-04-22T19:58:00.000+08:00

breathe underwater; emanuel

heyhoos all you people!

like finally, i get to blog.

sorry yea, for going missing for a week plus or so..

ahaha.

wells, things have been going fine.

the good friday's outing with my classmates was great!

we watched west side story and it was a blast.

i have tonnes of pictures to show but i just have no time no upload.

heee.

so sorry yea.

and hell yea, tmr's my 5 mths with my dearest.

heeeheee.

im happy.

as in, very happy..

aahaha.

my mid year's the week after next so i have to start pumping.

im starting to get panic already..

hahaha.

ohwells, i gotta go.

it's just a short update.

ahaha.

hope you guys are doing fine as well.

take care yea beautiful people.

heee.

((=

2006-04-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

poetically pathetic; amber pacific

hellos.

i've just returned home from school.

i woke up real early today.

and i reached school real early toos.

ahaha.

i had maths & all the fucking shits.

ahaa.

school is stupid and i am one of the stupid asses as well.

ahahah.

anws, my mid-year is in 2 weeks time.

fuck.

how time flies fast.

bluekk.

ahaa.

i wanna go swimming but hanah forbids me to.

she says im sick.

so, stay at home!

ahaha.

maybe tmr or friday going town..

have to buy a new babydoll top.

weeehee~

i wanna buy an orange clr one uhs.

baby's going out uhh later.

wahhlann.

i dutnoe laa he.

he now spends his time on games and friends.

no more time for me.

and im very sad uhh.

eeeyaarghH!

and then, he doesnt care anymore.

just now i cried again.

he accused me of having another guy again~

haizz.

hw i wish he'd understand..

haiyoyoyok..

i still love him a lot okay!

yes, a lot!

and im scared if he were to say,

"im sorry, i have to leave you.."

aiyoooo!!!!

like that i die uhh.

anws, next week my 5 mths uhh!

yeayness!

wehhehehe.

nurulatikahheartsmohammadkhairulfaiz

okehbye.

what a tragedy..

2006-04-11T16:34:00.000+08:00

shadow girl; desole

i didnt know why.

the first thing when i set my eyes on him.

i felt the sense of warmth.

i missed him so much.

i just realised.

i just wanted to hug that body and kiss those lips.

is this normal?

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hellos.

back to my normal posts.

heees.

i've not been coming to school for the past week

and finally, i went to school today.

and my classmates missed me!

ahaha.

anws,

sorry for not replying tags and not updating,

leaving this blog undone altogether,

i was actually kinda busy or rather,

not in the mood.

my voice is getting from bad to worse.

ahaa.

well, what can i say?

my fever and flu has reduced.

but still, my cough is still a pain in the ass.

it just doesnt wanna stop.

heeeks.

i met my baby yesterday.

ahaa.

after 6 days of not meeting each other,

i really missed him.

i feel kinda different since the day i met him yesterday.

i missed him alot.

i feel very in love.

but i refuse to tell.

is this normal?

ahaaa.

this may seem strange to all.

and guess what?

it is to me toos.

i feel more and more scared to lose him these

few days.

i just feel like i wanna be with him 24/7.

awww.

isnt it so wonderful?

the feeling of being in love?

well i hope he's not reading this or else,

he'll be laughing his lungs out!

ahaha.

but, yea, i do miss him until now.

and the feeling still hasnt fade away a single bit.

i still think of him day and night.

how i wish....

ohwells, i think im kinda going overboard alredy.

ahaha.

sorry guys.

ouh yea,

i'll post some pictures soon.

heeeks.

have a nice day all!

and still i wonder, will you be with me till the end?

2006-04-09T12:57:00.000+08:00

bleed for you; hidden in plain view

hellos.

haizz.

my sickness is getting worse.

yes, WORSE.

this morning, i woke up.

was spitting my phlem away.

then, i saw..

blood.

yea, some blood.

haizz.

im very stressed out laa.

i wanna DIE!

phuck. phuck. phuck.

what must i do uh ?

evrytime i wanna sleep,

i'll keep on coughing evry few minutes.

and it's really iritating coz i cant sleep well.

haiyoo.

this is one of the worsts sickness i've ever had siaa.

arghh!

phuck this sickness.

phuck my cough.

phuck the flu!

i wanna be healthy and normal again.

its really hurting.

ughh.

anws, i maybe going out today.

and i wanna eat healthy food.

haiyaa.

so boring uh.

no ice-cream treat for me!

ohkay bye!

oh goddammit!

2006-04-08T09:55:00.000+08:00

life size mirror; no use for a name.

hellos!

im up early today yea?

ahaha.

actually i cudnt sleep the whole night..

i have this very very bad cough and

the truth is, i miss my baby.

ahaha.

and yes, he called me at 8 in the morn.

whr i was half asleep.

but still, i just miss him.

i can choose to not pick up..

but still.. haiyoyokk!

and yea, he called me..

he said he just came back.

came back from fishing with the 'wans'. ahah.

the bigberd&the small wan.

hwahwa.

baby said he and the small wan was outta luck ytd.

they did not catch a lotta fish.

especially the small wan.

he didnt catch any!

ahaa.

but baby caught two.

and one got away!

ahaha.

lucky fish.

he came back and was scolded by his father.

poor baby!

hehe.

but yea, you spend the whole night

but you ended up not having any fish.

bigberd caught a super duper big fish.

not so big laa.

but still, i havta ask wan for the pickcha.

eeeheeee.

my baby misses me!

ahaa.

i miss my baby toos laa.

haiyooyook.

must go tamp laa next week.

at least make him happy.

okehh kn?

hehehe.

ouhkehh bye!

wanna sleep back.

like pigg uh?

[p.s; while i was typing this entry, i was blowing my nose

lyk hell uhh. i hate blocked nose and coughs. eyarrgh!]

i can feel the pressure.

2006-04-07T15:36:00.000+08:00

discovering the waterfront; silverstein

DEAR HIM,

please be aware that this soul still loves you.

this soul has just realise how weak it is.

it has just realise how much injustice it has done to you.

this soul wants to hug you.

wants to be near to you.

maybe its true.

you said it has been doing nothing.

this soul has been crying inside, everytime it heard that sentence.

blame it for not caring enough.

blame it for taking things too easy.

blame it for everything.

this soul is ready to take whatever punishment.

this soul, is trapped between her parents and you.

on one hand, its parents asks it to obey them.

and on the other, you're asking it to come over.

what shall it say to its parents?

trapped.

this soul is just trapped.

but, its just today that this soul realised how meaningful you are to it.

those time, gifts, talks and all thats meaningful.

this soul id the ugliest faggot.

a soul that couldnt appreciate you last time.

but it will try again.

and may god will, allow it to.

and may this relationship blossom like it used to.

this soul is longing for you.

this soul is crying inside.

it cried.

and cried.

yours sincerely,

a soul that's so hurt.

all i need is time.

2006-04-07T15:03:00.000+08:00

I MISS HIM SO MUCH.

'SAY NO MORE, JUST GET GOING.'

I HEART HIM.

I JUST CANT AFFORD TO LOSE HIM.

='(

2006-04-06T14:58:00.000+08:00

HE DOESNT LOVE ME ANYMORE.

='(

2006-04-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

slow down; the academy is..

you guys must be wondering why these few days,

i've been blogging at the wee hours of the day.

ahaa.

well, it has been my routine since the day i got fever.

i tend to have the mood to blog at this time.

hahaa.

strange but true.

i went to the clinic today.

ALONE.

ughh.

was feeling kinda miserable so i decided to take a

bus there.

the doctor gave me another 2 days MC.

ahaa.

okay laa.

more time to rest.

but im sure im gonna have super duper loads and tonnes

of homework to do.

okay laa, maybe im exaggerating a lil' over there.

but yea, i'm gonna miss this whole week's

maths lessons.

so i gotta catch up soon uhh.

its only 3 weeks away to my exams.

time's gonna fly real fast and it's gonna

make me feel as if yesterday was april.

soon, may's gonna say,

"move over april! here comes may!"

ahaa.

whutever laa.

and yea, i wanna thank all those who cared for me.

thanks for all your concern yea.

i feel so loved.

but nevertheless, i miss my friends in school.

people like hanah, widya.. etc..

i miss you guys man.

altho it's only a freaking 3 days..

i bet widya's kinda lonely.

ahaa.

im still wondering if the bitch does attend school.

bet she doesnt.

she's just so over-obsessed with her bf.

whatsoever laa.

anws, i miss my bf dearly.

he's out fishing wif wanbigberd&co.

at least i knw he's safe.

ahaa.

ohwells,

take care all.

my worst brings out the best in you.

2006-04-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

the terrible secret; emery

heyhoos people.

i feel so miserable right now.

im having a high fever.

i didnt go to school just now and im not goin also tmr..

haiyoo.

and yea, baby was super duper sweet just now.

he came over.

he brought along a VCD with him.

it was 'american history x'.

a story about skinheads.

of course there were violence.

although i cant tolerate violence, i still watched it.

the ending was very sad.

ahaa.

baby said he cried the first time he watched the movie.

wehehee.

besides watching the VCD, he made my bed for me,

asked me to lie down in bed,

he got me a glass of plain water and put it at the

side table next to my bed.

and yea, he also bought me food.

but yucks, the food was tasteless.

why?

because i was sick laa.

it was hard to swallow the food.

super duper hard.

and i hate my cough!

it's extremely painful!

ewww.

and baby took away my ciggies and didnt let me

smoke for today.

but its okay.

i noe its for my own good.

haiyaa.

i think i wanna do my POA project now.

then, i gotta email it to my fren.

if not, they'll say im not doing my job.

sheeesh.

ohwells, THANK YOU BABY FOR EVRYTHING!

I APPRECIATE IT ALOTS!

AHAHA.

MWAHHHS!

you're all that i have..

2006-04-03T16:15:00.000+08:00

seven years; saosin

HELLOS.

im home early today.

daddy picked me up from school just now.

im still coughing badly and my one of my nostrils is blocked.

ahaa.

whutever shit it is, i'll show my pics for yesterday.

and then, my rants..

well, ferst and foremost, some random pics..

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now for ytd's pics.

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finally.

i've finished updating all the pics.

im not in the mood to update anymore.

baby wants to see me.

i said i wanted a peace of mind.

but instead, he called me,

asking me why..

and said he's coming over.

im really sick right now.

i need a rest.

i'll just lay here, waiting for you..

2006-04-03T01:58:00.000+08:00

i write sins not tragedies; panic! at the disco

its ard 2 plus alredy.

ahaaaa.

im still not in my dreamland.

ahaha.

i cant sleep laa.

i got back around 12 just now.

all because i wanted to call my baby.

ahaha.

but then, when i called for 13 times, he didnt pick up.

after a few minutes, he called me.

must have called another grrl i guess.

nyehehe.

whutever laa.

nehoos, i went to parkway parade just now.

as usual, i went to MPH.

bought a lot of colored pens and a new notebook.

a super duper big one uhh.

and it's green, and it's nice.

ahahha.

wanted to buy clothes at E.BASE but it wasnt

really interesting. haiyoo.

whutever laa.

maybe next week can buy uhh.

ahaha.

i took lotsa pickchas just now.

maybe i'm gonna post it tmr since its getting late.

also, saw a lot of hot guys at yio chu kang

when i was eating with my family..

but still, MY BF'S HOTTER AND CUTER.

hahaha.

I LOVE MY BABY VERY2 MUCH!

i want you to be my lover..

2006-04-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

i've been dying to reach you; saosin

2nd update for today.

ahaaa.

i feel so bored.

heee.

anws, i went to CWP just now.

met up with angie and nadia ferst.

when i reached there, they were at mc.

so yea, sat down and ate & smoked.

both were mad at me.

aahah.

coz i was super duper late.

ahahaa.

then went to TOM & STEPH.

fooled around.

then went to CWP.

i bought two tickets for ULTRAVIOLET.

haaahs.

then we went to the arcade.

nadia was showing faces all along.

all because her bf did not want to fetch her or sth like dat.

but as she saw this somebody at the arcade smiling at her,

she was grinning all the way and i dutnoe why she was so happy.

hahaha.

whutever laa.

so i met baby around 5 plus..

then went to buy popcorns and stuffs.

then, we watched the movie.

the graphics and the actress was super COOLNESS!

but the story line was un-understandable.

ahahahha.

that was why it was rated 1.5 in the papers and that

was also why a lot of people slept in the cinema.

ahaha.

so, i'd rate 4/5 for graphics and 1.5/5 as well for the story

line.

ahah.

and then, on my way back, something happened between

me and baby.

i cried, wanting to run..

haiyaa.

its all over..

i love my baby.

haha.

((=

i beg for you to stop it now..

2006-04-01T10:18:00.000+08:00

ex's and oh's; atreyu

HELLOS!

it's april fools' day today!

haha.

anws,

sorry guys, for not updating.

my blog was blocked by the anti-spam robot.

and seriously, it was pathetic.

aahaa.

but of course, they unblocked it back upon my request.

ahaa.

troublesome.

and yea, you see my new skin?

ahaha.

this was the new skin that i did a few days ago.

all due to the stoopid blogger.

so i thot, why not do a new a nycer skin?

ahaha.

angie, the aunty, my classmate said that the previous skin

was nyce but then it's kinda plain.

ahaa. tks for giving me the inspiration yea aunty.

hehee.

went to town yesterday.

its a long story.

but im gonna cut it shorrt.

went to buy a new purple striped longsleeve,

a watch and a bodyshop limited edition perfume.

ahahas.

and so, i bumped into aishah, my schoolmate &

a friend, EMY.

i dutnoe whether he recognised me or not..

but i sure did recognised him.

and yea, i met my baby ytd.

i miss him.

and baby, im sorry if these few days, my attitude's

back.

im just not feeling well.

kept on smoking till i ended coughing so hard.

phuckk~

i wanna watch ultraviolet!

but then, it was rated 1.5 in the papers.

so how?

hmmm...

and yes, i want to go watch ice age 2 wif mummy.

she loves cartoon laa.

ahaha.

ohwells, gtg..

gotta go to woodlands later to meet up wif my

group members of my POA project.

gonna finish our project there.

heeeheee.

TOODLES! ;p

i was before you..

2006-03-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

kiss and make up; funeral for a friend

simply bloody hungry.

mummy and daddy didnt leave me any cash.

fuck.

ughh!!

and now im starving.

plus that bloody ass wore my stuff without asking.

fucker.

haizz.

im gonna burst out soon.

very soon.

and yea, tmr's a torturous day for me.

gotta stay in school till 7.30 to copy my CME book for 50

times.

im so fucked up.

and that bitch can go fuck herself up.

2006-03-27T22:44:00.000+08:00

ex's and oh's; atreyu

HELLOS.

today is a very boring day for me.

ahaaa.

its true tho.

i had my oral exams today.

i totally phucked up at the picture conversation!

aahaha.

i was nearly speechless.

phucking teachers, give such hard stuffs for us.

ughh!!

after a hard time with the oral thingy, i went home uhh.

then at home, my syster cried uhh!

haiyaa.

she told me she was being backstabbed and stuffs uhh.

pityy her uhh.

aiyoo.

stoopid fucking bitches!

eeeeeeeeeee!!!!

ok whatever.

rest assured im gonna meet and scold them tmr.

ahaha.

lyk real.

and then, i slept from 5 to 10.

IM A PIG.

bbye!

one and three, you are here..

2006-03-27T17:48:00.000+08:00

gone so young; amber pacific

HELLOS!

just gonna show u guys some pictures..

((=

;

kikyn when she was a lil' kiddo. ((=

my brother wif kak sheila

my bf. cute!! ahaha. i like this pic alot!

my bf.

guess who? its me!! ahaaha. funny ryt? ;p

my bf.

me again. so the not cute. haa. ((=

kikyn again. ahaha.

last two sundays.

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yesterday's pictures.

bye!

2006-03-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

in loving memory of; so they say

hullos.

im updating for the second time today.

ahaaa.

okay, so i feel happy today.

ahaha.

yes, i did meet my baby.

and yes, we did watch a movie.

we headed for lot 1 at 2 plus.

and when we reached there, we went to the cinema.

and we saw a few shows for today.

we decided to take up the 5pm show for the DORM.

and yea, while waiting, we went to food culture and ate.

after which, we went down and had a few puffs.

today, i didnt buy the ciggs but instead, baby bought them.

so yea, and we went to 7-11 to buy chocolates.

we went to the theatre at ard 3.30.

we bought popcorns and drinks.

watched the movie and it ended ard 6.50.

went home and before sending baby, had a few puffs again.

and so, before he went back, he gave me two more sticks.

ahaa. i'm being controlled now.

if not im gonna smoke like a train now.

ahaha.

sent him at the bustop and went to buy my syster food.

there, at the coffeeshop, i saw an old friend, hairee.

a diff hairee.

ahaa.

he asked me where im going and stuffs.

then, i head home.

was an enjoyable day with my baby.

didnt had fights for 3 days alredy!

ahaha.

happy laa.

mwahahaa.

ohwells, bbye!

dancing under starlight glows.

2006-03-25T10:09:00.000+08:00

bombs over brooklyn; love equals death

hellos.

i woke up kinda early today.

ahaa.

all because i wanna ask money from my mum and dad.

ahahah.

coz today, i'm gonna watch a movie with baby.

i dutnoe what movie and its not really confirmed yet whether

we'll be really going or not.

i hope we are.

ahaha.

i feel very tired laa these few days.

and very restless plus very hot-tempered coz its been very humid these few days.

ahaa.

whuetever.

i am very very sleepy now actually.

haha.

buts its ok.

i still need to stalk my parents for money!

hwaahwaaa.

ohwells, i wanna sleep back.

ahaha.

PIG.

-.-

and they call this tragedy.

2006-03-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

smashed into pieces; silverstein

HELLOS!

well, ferst and foremost..

HAPPY 4 MTHS TO ATY[K]HAIRUL!

hahaa.

time really flies fast.

like finally im already 4 mths with him.

and yes, i DO LOVE MY KHAIRUL VERY MUCH.

ahaa.

he's my rainbow, my sunshine as well as my storm.

((=

i simply love him so much.

okayys, so lets get back to my normal routine.

and so, i went to school today.

had 5 periods of lesson and as usual, had 5 free periods.

ahaa.

didnt go self-study today.

was a bit lazy.

so i ended up going home and i slept.

weehee.

and i waited for baby to come over.

spent our time together and at 8, he went off.

i miss my baby again.

haha.

he wants to meet me tmr but i really pity him so i guess

i wont be meeting him.

hee.

((=

ohwells, i need to do my homework.

im hungry btw.

ahahah.

untill the day i die, i spill my heart for you..

2006-03-22T20:39:00.000+08:00

escape artists never die; funeral for a friend

hellos.

im so bored today.

tmr is my 4 mths!

ahaa.

but i dun think i'll be meeting baby tmr cos

he has his project to finish..

and i'll finish school late.

ughh.

but its okay tho coz i've met him juz nw.

he came over with mat.

im soo stressed with my school work now.

i feel very stupid now.

because it's like out of 11 or 13 periods i have in school,

i only pay attention to 2 or 1 period only..

ahaa.

today was a bit wierd..

i slept while sitting up straight.

ahaaa.

suddenly i felt so sleepy.

hahas.

ohwells,

i still havent done my malay project.

im going to complete it all today.

HOPEFULLY.

ahahaha.

later wanna watch that teman anugerahku.

ahhaha.

i only watch tv only wednesdays.

what a boring lyff. -.-

it's good to see you.. i missed you last night.